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chapter 9//the park

//alex pov

Thankfully, the park was empty, save for a few kids and their parents. We chose to sit on a bench in the shade. It was a beautiful setting. Nothing could make it a better place for a first kiss. 

Did it seem a little forced? Of course, but it's not like I wasn't planning to kiss him before the day was over. We might as well get it over with sooner and get more comfortable with each other. I just really wanted this relationship to go somewhere. 

When we sat down on the bench, I noticed there was at least a foot of space between us. I quickly scampered over to be right next to him. His cheeks were tinted red when I placed my hand over his.

"We're dating, aren't we?" I asked. 

He smiled down at me. "Y-yeah, I'm just not used to all the contact."

Oh shit, I messed up. 

"O-oh, I-I'm sorry-"

I retracted my hand, but he grabbed it back. 

"I never said I didn't like it, silly. By all means, don't stop. I love it," he encouraged. 

I chuckled a bit in return, not really knowing how to respond to that other than lacing our fingers together. I took a quick peek at him, just to be able to look at his beautiful face again. He ended up breaking the silence quickly. 

"You never exactly told me your roommate."

"Aaron Burr. You know him, trust me," I snickered. 

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I thought back to the many times Burr had come back into the dorm with a frown on his face muttering about John's group of friends. I felt bad for the guy, obviously, but sometimes I couldn't help myself but laugh.

"I know about the little pranks you and your friends play on him," I answered. 

"O-oh, yeah," he rubbed the back of his head. "I would know him from that, definitely."

That brought a long awkward silence upon us, until he spoke up once again.

"Do you know Hercules? He's Laf's boyfriend."

I nodded. 

Lafayette had brought him to our house a few times over the summer. Unfortunately my bedroom is right across from Laf's and they are not quiet at night. Hercules was a fine guy and all, but I felt bad for John who had to live with that couple almost everyday.

"I've met him multiple times."

"So far I'm the only one that hasn't known about you," he scoffed. 

I giggled at that. "Maybe because Laf didn't want you going after me."

"They could've told me before I came out. It's only been a few months," he explained. "Though, I'm sure everyone just assumed."

"Why would they do that?"

"Well, for starters I was unaffected by the Schuylers when I first met them. Apparently, only gay guys and aro/aces can do that. It was probably confirmed when Herc found gay porn on my laptop."

I couldn't help but burst out laughing when I heard that. 

"Don't laugh it was embarrassing at the time!" he scolded humorously. 

I finally answered once I caught my breath. "You put it on an incognito tab, you idiot!"

"How was I supposed to know?!" He was laughing when he answered,

"It's common knowledge! I don't even watch porn yet I know that!"

"Oh, fuck you!" he cackled. 

In a dead serious tone, I said, "Please do."

I didn't even know how that came out. It was probably just in the heat of the moment, but I still meant it. I liked him a lot.

He didn't answer, which led me to believe that I actually messed up this time. I had gone too far. I should have-

My thoughts were interrupted by his lips crashing against mine. At first I was taken by surprise, but a few seconds in I melted into it. Once we released, I needed to catch my breath. I was shocked that he would be the one to start it, not me. I looked into his eyes, which were wide from emotions that I couldn't pick up. My own mind was swirling with far too many thoughts to even respond.

"I-I, um-"

I cut him off by kissing him again. His soft lips felt perfect against mine. When we parted, it seemed too short. I wanted to kiss him again and again and again. He just made me feel so giddy and I needed it to last longer. 

"That was..." I started.

"Good? I don't know if I'm a good kisser or not. You probably expected more from me, I'm sorry. It's just that you're my first boyfriend and all, and who knows how long this will last. You'll get tired of me-"

"Shut up, John. It was fantastic."

He flashed a toothy grin at me. "Can we do it again?"

"I'd be more upset if we didn't."

Both of us moved in and connected our lips one more time. I wrapped my arms around his neck and attempted to position myself on his lap without breaking the kiss.

"Alex, we're in a public place. I hope you don't expect me to take off my pants right here," he whispered. 

So maybe the thought of John without pants was enough to arouse me. I brought my lips to his and began to softly grind on him, earning a small groan. 

"But I will at my dorm," he purred. 

"Well what are we doing here?" I jokingly asked, jumping off of him. 

I took a hold of his hand and pulled him up, merrily walking along. John snickered, intertwining our fingers and walking with me. 

I shot a quick text at Burr letting him know what was happening. 

justyouwait: don't wait up for me tonight. staying over with a someone.

burrssir: you mean getting laid?

justyouwait: well i might as well tell you that john is my boyfriend now too

burrsir: just don't get STDs 

justyouwait: whatever. see you later

//an: finally updated this (woo!) and sorry it's short but there's gonna be smut in the next chapter so i hope that somewhat makes up for it. 
also the next chapter title is gonna be another falsettos reference because why not? (spoiler alert it's gonna be "alex going down" because it's funny to me. okay?)
~meghan