Besitos // Kian Lawley

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|christine|

We were finally walking home. We left the car there because he said we'll just end up getting dinner later and than Bobby was gonna drop me off home. But before we went home, I grabbed my backpack and kept my board with me

One of his hands were in his pockets and I was doing the same but the other was holding my board

"You aren't much of a talker huh?" He asks looking at the ground

When I'm sad, I'm sad. But when I'm happy, oh god I am happy

"Just thinking" I said kicking a pebble

"I mean that day at the grocery store you were kinda talkative. Is anything going-"

I furrow my eyebrows. It's kinda not his business am I right

"I mean it was awkward and I just moved here. Ahah I was tired and wanted to go home" I said cutting him off

"Oh I see. So you're just always quiet, awkward"

"Uhm no, only when something's wrong or i don't know, things are, bad. I guess" I said with a half smile

I saw the guy that was asking if I knew him out on his lawn. We were almost home

"So what,? Things are bad right now"

I didn't say anything. I did a long sigh and decided to just stay quiet. Maybe he'll get the idea that I don't wanna talk about it

I look up, "ah! We're here!" I said recognizing the lawn the boy was on

I felt Bobby looking at me and I looked at him. he sure was too. Was he looking at me the whole time?

We enter the house with Bobby leading me, plus showing me around

I walk into the kitchen, "guys Christine. Christine that's Jc, Kian, Corey, and Franny" I smile at them all and sat down in one of the chairs at the island

Kian, the boy who thought I'd recognize him, was looking at me. His hair was different

"Hey I'm digging those camos!" The boy with curly hair said, Jc I think

"Thank you, fresh tattoos" I complimented him back looking at his "loser" tat. I really liked it

Kian sat by me, "you remember me know?"

I looked at him, god his eyes were pretty. "F-from the store?" I said

His smile faded, "uh- uh ya- yup" I smile at him

What's his deal man

I couldn't stop staring at him, and he couldn't stop staring at me. Or maybe he thought we were having a staring contest or maybe I had eye boogers.

I mean whatever we were doing I didn't want to stop, not now

Kian blinks a couple times and looks down and I do the same. I guess we were looking at each other for awhile because it was only me and him in the kitchen

I look in the living room and Franny was sitting on the couch eating popcorn. I got up

"Hey do you mind if I shower and like borrow some clothes? I'll give them back in the morning or whenever I see you again-"

"Ya ya sure. Actually I'll give you some clothes that I don't want anymore or just don't fit me and you can keep them. How's that?" I smile at her and we both go upstairs

|kian|

How does she not know me? I'm Kian fucking Lawley. Like what the fuck? Is it my hair? Did I bleach it too much? Is it the nail polish? Is it the new earrings? What the fuck

Like I bump into people all the damn time but that's because I'm clumsy but anyway, they never notice me. I mean if it's a chick yea some do but like teen girls. Why am I being so "sprung" or like wanting her attention on me?

I mean she's beautiful ya know? Shes like those dolls. Like those cute small chicks that are so fun and creative and just have such good energy and vibes. She reminded me of a cute doll. A really really cute doll that I wanted out of the damn box so bad and just okay with her. She's so cool, she's dope. She seems just like an overall dope person to hang with. God and her freckles and her style. Wow. I don't know if she noticed me get a little lost when I was looking at her or something but I swear something happened.

I was just looking at her and like, I couldn't move. Like my eyes got lost in hers, or maybe I just got a little horny and her face was like porn and I couldn't look away. But I didn't get hard..

Oh my god, was I gay?

Like what was so special about this chick that like I've been feeling the need to let her know that I need her love? That I need her in my life?

What's so damn special? She's a skater chick and I'm a YouTuber. And I'm Kian Lawley. I don't fall in love with the skater badass chicks. I don't fall in love after Andrea. I don't fall in love at all.

I don't fall for the "love at first sight", "she's my friend that got heartbroken Ima fix her", "she's depressed lemme help", "I'm depressed and she helped".

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THIS CHICK DID TO ME. GOD PLEASE HELP