The Secret

BE Mines

I only have two days till the white party an I really want Carmen on my arm that night. Yea I know that means telling her how I really feel about her . I been feeling her since we first meet at age five. I remember it like it was yesterday. She came over in a white and pink short set . I had on a simple t-shirt and cargo shorts. I was outside playing with Lj when this beautiful little girl came up to us . "Hey my names Carmen , we just moved in across the street. "I was mesmerized  by her smile , her eyes ,her personality just everything about her. After that day we been hanging out and talking ever since. We never got on the subject  of us dating we just was best friends . I sat up in my bed thinking of a way to tell her. I walked to the living room area and sat at the piano. I took out my notebook and wrote. "Hey baby girl listen up, I wanna put something in your ear, I just want to be your man ,you know more than just your friend." i rapped out loud as I wrote it down. It took me three hours to finish the song and make the perfect beat for it. I put on one of my track suits an headed to Philly. I know she get out school at 4 its 4:10 and i'm waiting for her across from the school. She saw me and walked over to me " Hey D what you doing all the way out here?"she asked me . Well if you must know i'm here to get my girl I told her. She looked at me kinda funny so I told her to take a ride with me . Once she got in I took her to the park we use to play at as kids. "what we doing here Dwight? and who is this mystery girl of yours, hope she doesn't get mad you with me right now " I look up at her as we exited the car just admiring her beauty . once we made it to the benches I sat her down. I want you to hear something I been working on I told her. After taking a step back an taking a breath of the not so fresh Philly air I played the beat.  (start rap at 0.16 )

AYE YO BABY GIRL LISTEN UP, I WANNA PUT SOMETHING IN YA EAR, I JUST WANT TO BE YOUR MAN, I WANNA BE MORE THEN YOUR FRIEND, I WANT TO TAKE YOU IN EXPENSIVE RIDES, I JUST WANT YOU TO BE MINES,COME ON BABY GIRL DON'T BE SHY, WE BEEN KICKING IT SINCE WE WAS FIVE, WHEN I WAS YOUNG I WAS SO SHY , NOW I JUST WANT YOU TO BE MINES, COME ON BABY GIRL YOUR MY FRIEND , WE BEST FRIENDS TILL THE END , COME ON BABY LETS NOT PRETEND ,I REMEMBER WAY BACK THEN, WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU YEA ,YOUR SMILE AND PRETTY BROWN EYES, YOU LOOKED AT ME AND SAID HI, I'M CARMEN WE JUST MOVED IN, AFTERWARDS WE GOT TALKING , WE BECAME THE BEST OF FRIENDS , COME ON NOW TAKE MY HAND , LET ME BE YOUR MAN ,BE ON MY ARM FOR THE WHITE PARTY TOO , I WANNA SHOW THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I LOVE YOU . (end beat at 1.10)

Carmen looked up at me after I was done spilling my heart out . Only thing you could hear was the cars passing and the wind blowing . Come on say something C anything? I asked her she looked at me angrily and turned away. " Aye come on C what did I do? Was it that bad really?" I asked her almost losing my shit. I'm sorry but , I just poured my heart out to you something i have never done before . So your going to talk to me like the adult I know you are I told her , Spinning her around to face me."Talking about being a adult about things why didn't you tell me before then?" she shot my way with eyes full of tears. " Cause I was a little boy Carmen ,and because I wanted to make sure I fully Understand the word Love before I use it in vein." I told her truthfully . I grabbed her face softy wiping her tears and kissed her . It was a sweet simple kiss until I felt an electric current flow from our lips  right to my heart. It took my breath away . I opened my eyes and pulled away slowly, she still had her eyes closed as if in a trance . once she opened them she flew into my arms hugging me tight. " I was wondering how long you was going to make me wait on your bright ass"she joked . Well the wait is over ma im all yours and your all mines . we gone slay at the white party just wait .

Jamal

So let me be the one to say a lot has been going on lately . Mom and dad acting all fishy around each other . Lj that boy stay gone and creeping its like the hospital didn't do anything but make him want to get out even more . Don't even try to guess what he doing cause not one of us know. He like a black magician one minute he here and the next he gone like the milk your mom just brought and your brother gets to it before you gone . Anika been on some creeping shit lately too and she seems more clingy to dad then ever . This family needs Jesus . On another note I been planning on coming out to everyone at the white party. I just want people to hear my truth. Yea I know my dad going kill me , but I highly doubt it mom wouldn't let him do anything to me . I'm not some little scary bitch ,but my dad is not one to be fucked with. My plan is to remix my dads your so beautiful and add a little more to it . I exit my thoughts as I get a text from Ryan saying hey beautiful. Me and Ryan are not dating yet, but that doesn't mean I didn't knock the sheets with him yet either cause that been happened. Ryan is a great guy an all but he love to cook and I love my music we just don't have that much time for each other at the moment . I get up and throw on some clothes I was pose to meet mom in the studio today for a session. I'm working on a song called tell the truth. Its mainly about me telling my truth , but also about the secrets in my family . Once I arrived there mom was no where to be found so I started without her since my engineer was here and ready  . 

cookie

I was suppose to be in the studio with Jamal by now , but im stuck interviewing promoters for Jamal's new album. They had sixteen people I had to interview and im finally on my last one. "Next "I called out an in came this young man looking good might I say . 

"How you doing my names Quincy I heard you was looking for a promoter and since i'm the best around here I thought why not come help a beautiful black woman like yourself" See this boy here trying it . I looked down at his paper and he 33 not bad at all I thought . 'Well thank you Quincy what makes you think your the best "? I asked him . He smirks getting up sitting closer to me . "Well first of all i'm not afraid to get my hands dirty, that's what I do." He said to me with a smirk . "The wolves are going to come an no other promoter is going to want to touch you , but me ." he said  "I can show you better then I can tell you " he replied to me . When I tell you this man is making me hot that's an understatement . "On a computer of course ."he finished off by standing over me typing on my computer. I see he has some balls and a bit pushy , kinda reminds me of a kid version of Lucious . Not like Lj either he reminds me of if Lucious didnt sell or kill . He showed me his work an I loved it . He moved back around the desk and I let go a breath I didn't now I was holding in . His cologne slittered  right up my nose and let me just say I had to get my self together . "Well after everything Quincy I say you got the job." Heres my number call me at anytime Mrs.Lyon." He say reaching my his number . I grabbed it and corrected him . Its Cookie by the way . " Well I hope to hear from you cookie soon ." He say licking his lips and walking out . Lord give me the strength to keep up with that man , cause I  will have him  inside me one day I know it.

How was it ? i hope you guys enjoyed . vote and commet remember the white party is going to be on the 9th thats when that chapter is dropping . I also wanted to sat thanks to you all who take the time out to read , vote , and commet. thanks for all the love 🐞🌟