Angel with no wings

Chapter 2

Dear Carrie, 

today was a terrible day. In school we had a math test. I got a D. The teacher said I should study more but how can I study if I always think about you or Daisy or just write songs. 

We played yesterday in this Cafeteria down our street.

You remember it? 'Classy bunny' it is called. You and I used to drink cocoa there and I remember one time your mum took us there for my birthday and we ate that rainbow cake I love so much. 

We played two songs, first was She looks so perfect and second one was Disconnected. 

Since you can't hear them I will write you one here: 

Oh oh o-o-oh, oh oh o-oh

Life's a tangled web

Of cell phone calls and hashtag I-don't-knows

And you you're so caught up

In all the blinking lights and dial tones

I admit I'm a bit of a victim in the worldwide system too

But I've found my sweet escape when I'm alone with you

Tune out the static sound of the city that never sleeps

Here in the moment on the dark side of the screen

I like the summer rain

I like the sounds you make

We put the world away

We get so disconnected

You are my getaway

You are my favorite place

We put the world away

Yeah we're so disconnected

Oh oh o-o-oh, oh oh o-oh

We're so disconnected

Oh oh o-o-oh, oh oh o-oh

Hands around my waist

You're counting up the hills across the sheets

And I'm a falling star

A glimmer lighting up these cotton streets

I admit I'm a bit of a fool for playing by the rules

But I've found my sweet escape when I’m alone with you

Tune out the static sound of the city that never sleeps

Here in the moment on the dark side of the screen

I like the summer rain

I like the sounds you make

We put the world away

We get so disconnected

You are my getaway

You are my favourite place

We put the world away

Yeah we're so disconnected

Turn off the radio

Those late night TV shows

Hang up the telephone

And just be here with me

Turn off the radio

Those late night TV shows

Hang up the telephone

And just be here with me

I like the summer rain

I like the sounds you make

We put the world away

We get so disconnected

You are my getaway

You are my favourite place

We put the world away

Yeah we're so disconnected

I like the summer rain

I like the sounds you make

We put the world away

We get so disconnected

You are my getaway

You are my favourite place

We put the world away

Yeah we're so disconnected

Oh oh o-o-oh, oh oh o-oh

We're so disconnected

Oh oh o-o-oh, oh oh o-oh

I know you would love it if you were here. 

And the way Ashton sings you would love too. I remember how you once tell me that he sings like an angel and he should start his career. He did and I think it's you we should thank for that because without you there would be no 5SOS.

And in school today was really bad. I got pushed downstairs by this boy named Calvin. He said this is because I like his girlfriend. He dates Lorey, you remember her?

Well I don't like her and I don't know where he got that from. Only girl I have eyes for is Daisy. You know. 

And plus I got bullied every day more. They tell me I am a freak and that the only friend I have is you and that even you don't like me even thou you're dead. 

Ash, Calum and Michael are telling me this is all lies but what can I do? I believe every single word. I am a screwed up mess like someone said today.

I know that Ash, MIchael and Calum are my friends but I need someone that will be with me 24/7 like you were. But no one could replace you. Ever.

My mum said today I should pull myself together because I look like a wreck. But I feel everything is useless. I lose my best friend (you), the girl I like doesn't even see me, my other 3 friends aren't in my class, I'm alone.. 

How can I be good after all this? 

Singing in the band is the only escape I have.

Thanks for listening to my endless drama life.

You're my bestie in the whole wild world.

                                                        Love, your Luke xx