Dear Carrie
I couldn't finish my letter last time, so I am writing you once again.
Where was I?
Oh yeah.. me and Lily.
So she stood so close to me and she smelled almost same as you, I guess you two must of been using parfume from same brand.
Well I felt her warm breath on my neck. I knew excatly what she wants, but I can't give her that ... yet.
Before she could of do it I moved back.
She gave me a confused and then sad look.
"Sorry." I couldn't think of anything else in that moment. But I wasn't sorry. Okay this sounds selfish but I am not ready.
"Why did you move back?"
"I told you before. I don't know about my feelings yet."
"Oh Luke.."
"Don't be mad, I like you. A lot. But I am just not ready for anything more than friends."
"Okay..." She was talking like I hurt her but if I would of kiss her it would hurt me.
"Oh forget it, come here."
She looked up with hope in her eyes. I gave her a tight hug. She really smelled great.
A big reminder of you.
But no I didn't kiss her. It would of been to much.
"I love you Luke."
When she said it I froze. I wasn't able to talk. Did she expect my answer or what? I just swallowed air and started feeling hot.
"I .. you.."
"You don't need to say you love me as well, I can wait till you decide."
"Thanks." I barerly said and got it out with struggle.
"I should go Lily."
"Okay, yeah me too. See you soon?"
"Yep, in school."
"Hey!" She yelled behind me when I turned to walk away.
"Yes?!"
"We could of go tomorrow morning, together!"
"Fine! See ya. Bye!"
"Bye!"
"I'm sorry.." I said it more to myself than her.
I came home all confused and red.
My mum gave me a lecture about how I should behave in public. What does make her think I did something? Can I just feel hot sometimes?
God she can be irritating. And my dad? Yeah he doesn't even care what i do. If I would end up in hospital I bet he wouldn't even bother to come.
Yeah my family is weird. People told me my mum is so nice. Well the old woman I meet on my way to home.
Kids? No, they hate me.
I may be a singer but I am not popular as a kid in my own school, how will I have sucess in the world?
Ashton said he misses you again. He tells me that every day. I bet you miss him too.
Carrie if I had one last wish I would wish for you to coem back. I miss you.
And me being selfish and misserable as always I tried something I regret.
But let's talk about that next time. I am too tired now.
Be good Carrie.
Love
your loyal BFF Luke xx
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Angel with no wings
FanfictionHe writes to his best friend that passed away. He misses her a lot. But he has to move on with his life. What will he do now? Will he find new best friend? Maybe fall in love? Read/vote/comment :) x