Start all over again (SasuxFemNaru)

Part 36

Hello everyone! Another update for you... 

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Sakura's POV

I did everything to have him. I destroyed my friendship with Naruko for him. All my life I prayed for the Gods to at least give him to me and nothing else mattered, but I guess my desires are not important to them. The man who I fell deeply in love with felt nothing towards me. Even with his child inside me, my worth did not increase but rather it was nowhere to be found. His whole being is not made for me, but for her. They smile together and with their hands intertwined, leaving mine empty and hollow. Just why can't I have him?

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I stare blankly pass through the open window and onto the soft white clouds that was lingering in the blue sky that deeply reminded me of her. I turn my gaze to the flowers that sit quietly on to the table given by a man who belonged to her,

"Is there nothing here that belongs to me?" I asked myself,

"Sakura, stop... getting depressed over him is too overrated... I'm telling you this because of the child inside of you and because I am your friend... Sasuke is not the man for you... no matter how much you beat yourself that fact will never change for you to stop..." Ino said, as she sits beside me,

"The Gods never favored me for him... is that what you're saying?" I asked her,

"I'm sorry, Sakura... but it's not about being favored... it's about who he was destined to fall for," Ino answers,

"What do I do, Ino? I just can't go back anymore... I love him... I just love him..." I said, as I felt the raging agony in my chest and sadness in my eyes,

"Let him go, Sakura... Just focus on your child... that child will grow up and live by your side and he won't leave you... Give the overflowing love you have for that man to the child... he deserves you, his mother," Ino said,

"You're right... I guess..." I said, before caressing my belly where the unborn child resides.

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After 5 months, Sasuke and Naruko got wed. I was invited but couldn't ignore the heavy feeling it caused me and so I didn't go. Every weekend, their child, Chisuke always comes to visit me with Iruka. It was unbearable seeing her at first but after a while, I have come to warm up to her. She was very curious of the child in me, who she proudly recognizes as her sibling.

I didn't notice as the time passes by and my labor day came. The intense pain I felt throughout my body was immeasurable. The person beside me, all this time was none other than, Sai. I couldn't bring myself to ask for Sasuke anymore, I knew my place. Although he volunteered to do so, I refused because it would be harder for me to move on from him.

A month after I gave birth, I was visited every now and then by Sasuke, but now I learned to cope with the situation and leave it as is.

One day, as I carry my child on my arms sitting in a balcony, he sat beside me and said,

"Sakura... I'm sorry... for everything..." sincerity was in his words, all I could feel was the tears soaking my cheeks,

"There is nothing I could do, Sasuke... She was for you and you for her... I was the one getting in between... it was my fault as a person, I was greedy and possessive... I was cruel and bitter... But I have him now... and that should be my number one priority now... taking care of Tsukuse..." I said as I wipe my tears away, and look at him,

"I heard that Naruko and you are having a second baby?" I asked, Sasuke nods as he happily thought of it,

"I hope that you be happy with her and your soon-to-be children... I asked you to be happy for the rest of your life by her side..." I said, this was all I could ask of him. He then reached his hand out to caress our child who was sleeping soundly,

"I am and will be... and we wish the same for you, Sakura..." he said as he stood up and walks away,

"Nee, Tsu-kun... you have to grow and have a happier life..." I said to my child as link our noses together...

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