Mynoseisdrooling (AFF)
Jiwon is in denial, while Hanbin continues to fall in the pits of loneliness. However, Jiwon realizes when Hanbin no longer talks to him.He realizes that he doesn't see him as a fuck buddy.
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"I'm not gay,"
Through the sounds of the thickness and vividness latching of the pairs of lips, uttering silent moans and brief echoing of the violent shaky breaths. Through the shuffling of the phlegmatic sheets and expansion of the shirts from all the loud and rough gripping. Even through the needy hands that groped and stroked both gently, lovingly, but carefree and atrociously while breathing out quiet 'fuck yes,' 'oh god, more, please,' 'don't stop, don't stop,'All they could say was "I'm not gay,""I'm not either," Jiwon trailed his hands down Hanbin's sides, while lower him down against the sheets comfortably before attaching their lips. Jiwon was the North magnet, while Hanbin was the South. They were inseparable, not only on sensual terms, but possibly just their hearts mending and palpitating harshly. They both shook their heads in disbelief, pulling down the theory of love, but fucked from sunset to sunrise.Hanbin's parted his legs, encircling them around the male's pale naked waist to pull him in. The nipping and tongue grinding led their hips to do the same, which easy welcomed the shame of breathy moans and filthy words."Could you image this cock fucking you right now? You miss it don't you? Haven't had this cock inside you for awhile, huh," only to reply with a, "Oh god, Jiwon. Fuck me already, please. Put your cock in me baby,"Hanbin wrapped his fingers around Jiwon, while staring so lustfully at the man. He started off with brushing his thumb against the tip recklessly, desperately pushing out a pleased reaction. Jiwon hovered over Hanbin, palms gripping at the sheets beside his head, rutting his hips into the male's hand with enclosed eyes and parted lips. Which then all ended with Jiwon cursing out Hanbin for being a piece of shit for not letting him cum, but then he knew he was satisfied with it all in the end when he came down from the unbearable high he reached."Fucking shit. You expect me not to cum when you're whimpering like that?" He growled, almost glaring at the male who had his hips up, angling himself onto Jiwon's three long digits. He rocked himself while up on his elbows for support, muttering profanities here and there. Jiwon couldn't bring himself to stare at the boy because he would end up busting his nuts at the wrong time. Even listening to him made him shake unwillingly."P-Please... Fuck me. Replace your fingers with your cock, please, Jiwon. I need you," Just then, the heels of Hanbin's feet rested against Jiwon's shoulders, while his hips were covered by the boy's hands. He could feel the grip tightening, while he was being stretched apart while he thrusted in. The bottom boy had his knuckles painted white and you could almost hear the sheets threatening rip apart from the harsh grasping. His pain-dipped groan struck through the room, along with the other boy hissing at how the suffocation on his lower felt."Move,"Jiwon then moved his hips, lowering himself down a bit more till the point Hanbin could no longer bend. His legs over his shoulders with his head comfortably shuffling against the pillow. He looked up with hooded eyes, breathing out shakily between the forming of his quiet moans."Faster,"He ended rutting his hips violently to the male, pressing out loud moans out of him and piercing little,"You like that, huh. You like it when I fuck you like this," his dirty talk emitted against the walls. Hanbin almost had his back rammed against the bed frame, but because of his pillow, it wasn't so painfully sensual. His fingers dug into the sheets, gripping and threatening to rake them off the precarious bed, crying out the thrusting male's name."Oh god, Jiwon--"The session only continued till their burning abdomens set off, leading one make to lay limp from penetration and the other male slowing down his pace when releasing.They weren't gay.Not at all.▴The next day of school was a bit awkward -- Hanbin made it so, at least.He had his fingers curled into his shirt nervously, teeth grating against his bottom lip while avoiding gaze."Why are you so nervous? Is something wrong, Hanbin?" Jiwon tilted his head slightly in confusion, knitting his eyebrows while licking his lips."I think I like..." He mumbled inaudibly to himself, hanging his head to avoid the other man's gaze."What? I can't hear you, speak loud--""I think I like you," Hanbin looked up with a shaky gaze, lips quivering in fear as to what his friend would say. He gulped, nodding with a bitter grin, clearly spitting out the truth."I think I like you more than I should,"He watched Jiwon's expression change, which only broke his little heart even more. "I'm sorry. I just thought we were just fucking and all-- You know, friends with benefits? I didn't realize that--""It's fine," Hanbin felt his eyes water, shaking his head briefly while running his fingers through his hair.So when Jiwon wrapped his arms around his naked waist from behind, pressing his lips against his neck softly and murmuring soft strings of "love" were nothing?"It's fine. I shouldn't have expected more anyway. We're only fuck buddies after all," he didn't even say friend.So when things were silent between the both of them and Jiwon would gently turn Hanbin's head to look at him then kissed him tenderly, pulling away and telling him that he loved him -- it was nothing?He thanked himself for suppressing the upsetting sobs and streaking tears while he walked off.Just starting now, things have already changed vigorously.Between the two at least. ▴Hanbin was surprisingly more quiet than he ever was in his life just starting that month. Although, Jiwon might have been one of the closest people he's ever had, he avoided him and hid. He couldn't deal with his heart strings being pulled constantly. Just at the sight of him pained him."Hanbin, do you wanna hang out at my house? We could watch movies together just like we did on winter break--""No thank you," Hanbin replied quietly, shutting his locker.Jiwon was rather taken back by his response because he remembered his little Bin never refused. Neither would he say 'No thank you' and such, definitely not him."I... We can do something else like--""Bye, Jiwon," Hanbin gave a brief smile, not quite meeting up to his eyes. He turned his back to the confused boy and walked off.He wasn't really only confused, but he felt rejected, lonely and hurt. Hanbin was the only one he really held dearly to himself and he was losing him completely.▴Hanbin was a bit of a loner just throughout the months. Jiwon grew more frustrated, but as he did, he had his groups of friends tug on him as different distractions. Somehow, his eyes would only bore into the hiding male."Jiwon, you're literally killing the poor kid with your stare," Junhoe rolled his eyes, which then busted him out of the intensity, "What's so interesting about him anyway?""Everything," he whispered, eyes softening. He felt a sting against his heart thinking about Hanbin. He watched the boy leave, widening his eyes and jumping up from his seat and following. He heard his friends yell out his name to question what he was doing. He turned into the washroom, stopping when he saw Hanbin drying his hands with the paper towels.Hanbin saw him as nothing, attempting to move to Jiwon's side until the other male shifted to the side to block him.He cleared him throat, continuing to look straight ahead to avoid his gaze, "Please move,"The other male smiled briefly, "You're so cute," he missed having him this close to him. "Hanbin," he breathed out, eyes tracing his lips, cupping his cheeks and leaning down to capture his lips into a kiss.However, Hanbin didn't respond. He shut his eyes tightly, hands tightly clenching on his sides.Jiwon frowned when the male didn't respond, pulling away with a dejected expression, thumbs brushing against his cheeks, "Hanbin," he repeated again because he couldn't get enough of it. Hanbin opened up his eyes, letting out a soft breath of air, placing the boy's caressing hands down before moving out of the washroom as if nothing happened.Jiwon panicked."Hanbin, stop please," He could feel himself losing.He followed him out, quickening his steps. His heart palpitated violently against his ribcage and his breaths shortened. He felt like he was going to pass out. Jiwon felt his tears prick with tears, in frustration and hurt. "Hanbin, I'm afraid of losing you. Please don't go,"He felt relieved when the latter stopped in his tracks upon his confession. He watched him turn around."Losing me?" He tilted his head, "You never had me anyway, Jiwon," ▴Jiwon was sick, a bit too sick actually. He ended up taking almost two weeks off of school. Sneezing, coughing, running nose, vomiting and possibly even more came with him. Jinhwan and Junhoe had checked up with him everyday after school.However, an unexpected guest came. "Hanbin? Why are you here?" Jinhwan's eyebrows raised in surprise. He heard a Junhoe loudly ranting to himself, until he accidentally choked on his spit at the sight of the male.Hanbin smiles slightly, "Hi... Can I come in?""Y-Yes, of course!" He slipped off his shoes, rubbing his nape, "I... I heard Jiwon was sick so I...""No worries. You should go up to him right now," Junhoe muttered a bit too quickly with a clear of his throat.▴He hesitantly raised his fist up to knock, biting his lip."Junhoe, leave me the fuck alone!" He blinked at the loud outburst.He opened the door and heard rustles from the bed along with an irritated groan(and loud coughing obviously)."Junhoe, what did I-- Hanbin?" He widened his eyes, sniffling then dropping his head on the pillow. His voice immediately grew... Smaller, much more timid. Hanbin smiled, shuffling his way over to where Jiwon was anxiously, sitting on his bed and pressing the back of his palm against his forehead. "How are you?""Better since you're here now," he still managed to smile widely, urging him to smile as well. "Why are you here?" He grabbed his hand, eyes not meeting up. He was nervous too. "I..." He interlaced his fingers with his, feeling the questions clog into his throat."I... Well, I don't know either,""I'm gonna get you sick, Hanbin. As much as I want you here, please go. I don't want you sick,""Jiwon, I'm okay. Please let me stay,""Cuddle with me then,"He slipped in under his sheets, turning so he was staring at Jiwon. He felt him wrap his arms around his waist, chin resting on his shoulder. He smiled lovingly, arms draped over his shoulders, pressing closer to him. He remembered his whole motive was to avoid him at all costs till school was officially over for the both of them, then life was going to go on to different paths."I've missed you so much," He moved his head, pressing his forehead and the tip of his nose against Hanbin's. "Oh god, I just miss touching you like this-- Just looking at you makes me so happy,"Not sensual either.Hanbin's cheeks flushed, lips parting slightly in surprise. He didn't know if he was suppose to be mad, but he was happy, too happy. He smile widely, pressing in with a slightly tilted head to kiss him. He decided not to speak further.He heard the other male part away slightly and whine about how he 'was going to get sick,' but he told him to shut up and kissed him again."Hanbin,""Mm?""I really do like you, just so you know,"Hanbin ended up sitting on Jiwon's abdomen, locking him between his legs, while leaning down and kissing him feverishly(whoops). Jiwon had his hands on his hips and lower back, managing to not accidentally sneeze or cough.▴"Hey baby," a sweet murmur against his ear and a soft kiss to the skin just below along with the securing arms around his waist from behind. What a nice loving experience just by being at his locker.He bit his lip to prevent the wide smile from breaking out into his face. He ignored him, hiding the small grin while putting his stuff in.Jiwon frowned, leaning and pressing in further to nuzzle Hanbin's cheek from behind, repeatedly grossly kissing it. "Are you ignoring me, huh? Why are you ignoring me?" He whined between his smooches, while Hanbin ended up laughing and flinching away in his arms."Stop it, ew," he pressed his palm against his cheek, pushing him away. Jiwon grabbed his hand and kissed it with an impressed grin. Hanbin shut his locker and twirled around. He was planning to give him a hug until he was being smushed against the lockers with a pair of lips smashed to his.Hanbin groaned quietly when his head was smacked up against the surface, but his fingers glid up the latter's nape, moving his lips just as eagerly as Jiwon did.A clear of a throat.Ignoring.A louder clear of the throat and possibly a smack against the locker just beside his ear.Hanbin widened his eyes, pushing Jiwon away while quietly panting, looking at the interruption with a face of displeasure. "Um... Hi Junhoe?""Are you two dating?""I-I... We--""Yes," he felt his hand being squeezed. He instantly looked over and up to him in surprise, clenching his teeth.Junhoe snorted, rolling his eyes, "Nice. More things to gossip about," he watched the boy turn his back and walk away. He bit his lip, staring at his back strangely before looking back at Jiwon, giving him several smacks against the arm."We aren't dating! Why did you say we were?--""Will you be my boyfriend?"Hanbin widened his eyes, biting his lip, "No," "Don't lie," part of his face was pressed into Jiwon's shoulder, but his lips curled up at the quickening pace of his heart beat. He wrapped his arms around his waist, nuzzling his face into the crook of his neck, mumbling a quiet "Fine, I'll be your boyfriend,' whispering incoherently."Maybe I am a bit gay,""Nah, you're gay,""A little bit,""A lot,""A little bit--""Full on,""Fine," A loud smooch to the cheek, followed by Hanbin's snort.And maybe things were going to be okay now.
