A road to poetry

A mother and her mistake

A mother is suppose to love her child unconditionally.
To love all her children the same.
To be there for them one by one has they came.
To make them feel better when they are sad and not to be the cause of their sadness.
To encourage them instead of making them feel worthless.
To give them strength when they seem to be giving up.
Above all she should be happy you are there with her instead of wishing you weren't hers.

But what if your mother is not all those things?
What if she pretends she loves you but she really hates you?
When your sibling is there she is happy but when she is with you.
She looks disappointed with life.

You have tried to make her love you. But you seem to make her hate you even more.
It seems like she would rather have you call someone else mom rather than her.
She would rather not pay for something for you because she things you are a waste of money.

She would rather have three children than four.
Or two instead of three.
This simple means you were her mistake.
Inside you know she doesn't want you but you just wonder why.
She is your mother she should want you.
Shouldn't she?

Maybe one day she will stop pretending to love you.
She will remove the shackles of pain from your very own exsistence.
She woll just tell you straight.

But until then you need to stop being a burden.
Stop asking for things,
Stop getting hurt,
Stop crying,
And stop hoping for more.

Don't forget you were her mistake.