Differing Loves Tugging At Me
In my house I feel so safe and protected
And my words and thoughts can be directed
Onto the pages of my stories
As I relate my far off glories
It funny though I didn't understand
What it really meant to be a man
I thought men had to look the best
And put his love to every test
I find now true manliness with my sister's child
Being an uncle, not being wild
Caring for her and teaching her things
Oh what joy that little one brings
She loves her grandpa, and my brother and I
She never doubts, never asks why
Why we do those things a kid had sense not to do
Spending my days longing for you
Yes you my love, love of my life
The one I once wanted for my wife
If we had just sat down and planned things through
We would have a young child that looks just like you
But sometimes now I have had to learn to see
Being a man is not about what I wanted for me
It just feels like I still have so much more love to give
Enough for a gaggle of happy young kids
But being single has it's rewards it is true
I can still have the happiness of being friends with you
I also still have so much more time
To be a good Uncle to that niece of mine
Leif Gregersen
Questions
I often wonder if in a thousand years
What could be if my soul reappears
If I have been on this Earth more than one life
Why would I not know another time, another wife
If I have lived through a thousand suns
Back to when man had just begun
Would it matter to me anyway
Since I now barely remember yesterday
Once I studied under a Tibetan monk
My happiness grew, my anger shrunk
But I stopped believing in that path
Because to me Jesus is what lasts
I don't want to tell you what to think or see
All I can tell is what became of me
From the deepest pit of pain
I came back to fight again
You see you cannot preach after you've lost your mind
People see your words and think things unkind
It is hard for all to gain life sustaining faith
And harder to share it face to face
I know that meditation makes me love
All things below, around, above
But as I read my holy book
I get back all that madness took
I love the proverbs, they instruct my soul
Like a good Father they make one wise and whole
I could read the gospels a thousand times
And each reading there are new precious finds
One might think I would have lost my faith
Seeing my mother's dying face
But really when you are there for those about to pass
You find peace within to make their love last
I only hope someone could be there for me
As my last breath flows from me
Then if I shall be born again
I will owe a debt to a special friend
It could be that we spend our waking days
Trying to pay back the world in many ways
And when we each find our special kind of love
We give them kindness born from above
Leif Gregersen
May17, 2013
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PoetryThis is a chapbook of poetry that led me to dedicate myself to writing, whether it be for money or simply to express myself. In this book I talk about family, love, loss and all the illusions that life brings us through.