Poems From Inside Me

when love isn't what it seems, when doubts invade your dreams

What Does It Take To Be a Man

Some years back when I first laid eyes on you

Way back before I ever knew

That you would be so good for me

That love for you would never let me free

Loving you was so crazy and so wild

You made me feel like a well loved child

Who had searched his whole life to find someone

Who thought love was all about having fun

You blew my mind it’s true

With all those things you would do

After all this time I still think of you

Things back then all seemed so brand new

But later if we talked at all we played the game

Of trying to pin the blame

On which one of us let it all go bad

I wish I could just say you were the best I ever had

Once I thought that love would be enough

But things between us got a little rough

And I made my own fair share of mistakes

I had no idea of how much work love takes

I always had thought I would one day have

More than my mom and dad

But now I see them as a pair living life as one

Way after what I had with you was done

I understood that love and told you I wanted you in my life

And that maybe one day I would want you as a wife

But I wanted to play around just a little more

Before I walked inside and locked the door

Don’t tell me I’m selfish I know you wanted to as well

Don’t tell me I put you through hell

I was a stupid kid filled with molten desire

I didn’t want to also be a liar

It wasn’t that you weren’t enough

It was more that I wanted to seem tough

To friends that didn’t stay by my side

Jerks who wanted to take me for a ride

Don’t shed any more tears it’s too late for that

Don’t tell me I treated you like a welcome mat

We could have made it work if we had a plan

But I’m so ashamed right now to be a man

I told you to leave if you really wanted to go

But I still really wanted you to know

That I think we were tied soul to soul

And that apart we would never be whole

And so you left and I was able to have my fun

And I realized too late you were the only one

And more important after all that was done

I heard that you had given birth to my son

A helpless child that looked just like me

How could I ever have let you go free

I’m left with so much regret and pain

I wish I had those chances back again

So now I have sworn a promise to the world

I won’t mess around with even one more girl

Because I know that I did something really bad

And that somewhere there lives a child without a dad

Leif Gregersen

July 1, 2014