❝room 101❞ ➤ park jihoon {✔}

15.

PARK JIHOON

9:25 PM

Jihoon: Uy, Elle.

Jihoon: Thanks nga pala, hehehe!

Jihoon: Thank you at dumating ka kagabi ha? 'Di ko naman inexpect na pupunta ka. Tsaka lasing talaga ako nung na-chat ko 'yun kaya balewalain mo 'yung iba kong na-chat.

Ellie: Halata ngang lasing ka eh. Payatta bar? Really?

Jihoon: Sorry na! Lasing nga 'di ba?

Ellie: Bakit mo naman naisipang mag-lasing ha?

Jihoon: Wala lang.

Jihoon: Hobby.

Ellie: Hobby mo? Ang uminom?

Jihoon: Mhm.

Ellie: Kailangan ng alcohol sa katawan, yes. Pero 'yung maging hobby? Jihoon, that's bad for your health.

Jihoon: . . . 

Ellie: It's not like I'm concerned ha? Nag-susuggest lang and nagbibigay ng facts.

Jihoon: Nangangamoy defensive.

Ellie: Nangangamoy assuming.

Jihoon: Pero seriously, hobby ko ang pag-inom pero mahina ang tolerance ko sa alak. Mabilis akong malasing. Kaya ko lang naman siya naging hobby kasi madalas umiinom ako pag may problema.

Jihoon: And since lagi akong may problema, naging hobby ko na rin ;)

Ellie: You mean. . . may problema ka kagabi? Kaya ka uminom?

Jihoon: Uhm, basically. . . yes.

Ellie: Pwede ko ba malaman?

Jihoon: . . .

Ellie: Hindi ako curious ha, 'di ako concerned. Pero 'di ba mas magandang magsabi ng sama ng loob sa 'di mo ka-close? Kasi 'di ka ijujudge, alam mo 'yun?

Jihoon: Oo na, hindi ka na nga concerned. Paulit-ulit HAHAHAHAHA

Jihoon: I'm lying if I tell you that I don't feel any burden for being the rank 1.

Jihoon: Everyone's expecting something from you.

Jihoon: Kasi ikaw ang the best, dapat ikaw din 'yung may pinakamalaking maibubuga. Pero what if you just can't? 

Jihoon: Paano kung hindi mo na talaga kaya? You can't give up. Oo rank 1 ka. Ikaw ang pinakamatalino sa buong school. You're the best among all of them. Pero what does it really feel to be on top? Akala ba nila. . . hayahay ang buhay? Do they think that I'm chilling up there? I totally am not.

Jihoon: Ang taas ng tingin ng bawat isa sa'yo. Tapos nandyan pa 'yung mga judgementals. Mga taong akala'y dahil nasa taas ka, mababa ang tingin mo sa lahat. But that's not how it works. Kapag nasa taas ka, you don't know what will happen next. Will you maintain it or will you throw it away? Will you give up or will you continue to fight?

Jihoon: Lahat ng nakakapit sa'yo? Hindi mo alam kung totoo ba o peke. Do they want me as me. . . or do they want me for my rank?

Jihoon: If pwede lang akong mawala sa overall top, ginawa ko na. Being an ordinary is better than being extraordinary but you're not enjoying. I can live my life to the fullest when I'm just no one. Hindi 'yung may umaaligid sa'yo, and you don't even know if it's for good intentions or bad.

Jihoon: Kaya ikaw Ellie? 'Wag mong hilinging mapunta sa tuktok. You're not going to like it there. :)

Ellie: Wala ako sa posisyon para sabihin 'to. But you're not going to enjoy what you have if you keep on minding the people around you. From what you said, mainly it's because of the people who are expecting something from you. If you can't give them something, then give them nothing. Sino ba sila para hingan ka ng 'something'? Do they deserve your 'something'? Who knows? Maybe there's someone out there for you, who deserves your 'everything.'

Ellie: If hindi ka sigurado sa mga taong nakapaligid sa'yo, then isolate yourself from the fakes. Hindi mo kailangan ng pekeng kaibigan. You have your friends, kayo-kayong mga tropa. Sila ang tutulong sa'yo. You didn't have to drink. You didn't have to risk your health for your problems and for the happiness of others.

Ellie: And thanks again, for spelling my name correctly. I appreciate it. A lot.

Ellie went offline.

Jihoon: Thanks also. For your words. I also appreciate them, a lot.