❝room 101❞ ➤ park jihoon {✔}

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She became emotionless. She couldn't feel anything, not even her own presence.

"Jinyoung. . . he was happy. Malaya na siya Jinyoung, b-bakit ngayon magiging selfish ako at iiyak para sa sarili ko? Iiyak ba ako dahil masaya na siya?" She met Jinyoung's gaze, and that's where she noticed that he was crying for days, "Is being sad. . . being selfish?"

"No, noona. . . masaya siya. But there was an empty abyss. Kulang at hindi niya 'yun nakuha."

"I couldn't say yes. . . after reading his letter. If 'yun ang gusto niya, why would I contradict and do otherwise, right? Did I do the right thing, Jinyoung?"

"Noona. . ."

Jinyoung couldn't hold back his sobs. At first, nakakaya niya pang tiisin. Nakakakaya niya pang kumbinsihin ang sarili niyang kaya niya, at wala na siya, at hindi doon matatapos ang buhay nila. But what is happening now? He's breaking down and he couldn't take it.

"D-don't cry, Jinyoung. 'Di ba sabi niya, h'wag tayo iiyak? Bakit tayo iiyak. . .?" Lumapit si Ellie sa nakakabata at hinaplos ang likuran nito. Kahit na hindi sila ganoong naging malapit ay para bang nagkaroon sila ng iisang isip sa mga oras na 'yon. They both feel and share the same feeling and pain. Parehas nilang nararamdaman ang piga sa kanilang mga dibdib, tusok-tusok at kiro sa kanilang mga puso but their bodies were both numb from too much hurting, "J-jinyoung. . . h-hindi tayo i-iiyak. . . h-hindi. . . h-hindi. . . ko kaya. . ."

And she started to let everything out. Three days passed at ngayon lamang siya nagsimulang magluha. Noong una ay nakatulala lamang siya palagi at para bang wala sa sarili. Para bang nakatingin sa hangin at nakikita ang kaniyang mahal. But now she's crying, and she's proving that she's human.

"I-is this being selfish. . .?" Tanong niya, but it was also half-meant for Jihoon. Hindi niya mahanap ang tamang kasagutan kung mali ba't nagiging malungkot sila at umiiyak dahil masaya na si Jihoon kung nasaan man siya ngayon.

They weren't sure about the answer. But they knew, and Jihoon knew, that this would also take a big part of their lives. But something new will fill the empty hole and they will be happier than before.

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