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''You know, this is really hard.''

''So your mum's back?'' Peter started a conversation as we sat on the sand. We both took off our graduation gear and were just casually watching the sun go down. I nodded at his question, ''You don't seem okay with it.'' It was true, I didn't know how to feel. Only a while ago I had made up with my dad but now she's here he might feel like that was all for nothing. My dad was a changed man though unlike my mum. She had always been the glamorous, fun-loving mum who men drooled over. 

''I am... sort of.'' When I turned to look at him he was staring at something again with a scared expression. ''Peter?'' My fingers snapped in front of him. ''Wh-what?'' I shook my head. Peter looked off into the sunset. ''You know, this is really hard.'' 
''What is?'' He flicked his hand in between both of us. ''This. Trying not to kiss you every second.'' I blushed like crazy as he grinned, proud with the outcome.

''Okay. You really want to know what's hard? Trying to get through the day without thinking about you.''
''Oh yeah? Try having to stop yourself from calling you all summer. It's hard work!'' We both laughed, I missed this. ''I had to flush my phone down the toilet.'' He finished, making me laugh more until my sides began to kill. Since we were on this subject...
''Try having to remind yourself not to say, ''I love you.'' Every time you walk away.'' We soon realised what I had said. Peter was shocked that I had said something so strong yet it was truly how I felt. It was the hardest thing of the day. It killed me.
''You-You love me?'' He stuttered in a croaky voice. I decided not to reply instead looking back at the sea water with the sun beautifully reflected along it's waves. He smiled at me but soon looked down in sadness. 
''I know something harder though. Trying to get over us.'' Only then did I realise that we both felt the same way. We missed each other like crazy. ''Do you know what it's like falling in love with you? It's crazy. It's like nothing else matters-'' He continued whilst guilt and heartbreak filled me. I thought I sorted that out! Peter stopped talking suddenly and I looked up to find him staring at an empty space on the sand. 

''You've been doing that all morning. What's wrong?'' He sighed deeply; running his left hand through his hair. ''It's her. Alice.'' I slumped my shoulders. ''I- I don't know what it is but she's there and it's every time I'm around you.'' He began mumbling to himself before he stood up about to leave. Realisation written all over his face. 
''Where are you going? What is it?'' I called after him. Soon he turned to walk back to me. ''I promised to keep you out of this. To not get you involved. Look at what I'm doing right now.'' He flew his hands up in the air but kept his voice low. ''What kind of man does that make me?'' 
I stared at him for a while just to make sure he was serious. 
''What about me? You don't think it kills me too? I was there, Peter! My own best friend. My sister!'' Peter looked down with his hands covering his face. 

''What if you get hurt? Because of me...'' He hesitated. I blinked a few times. I had never thought of it like that. ''I won't,'' I walked closer to him even though he wanted to walk away and cupped his face. 
''because I trust you.'' I whispered in a begging tone. He softly threw my hands away. ''I can't, I can't.'' He repeatedly mumbled. ''I won't take that risk...I love you too much.'' He was telling the truth. I knew how much he regretted what he had said but this was his decision...again.
''Fine.'' I began to walk home off of the sandy beach. Not looking back this time at Peter.