Staying up thinking bout them...staring at them...talking to them...smiling bout them everyday? This is my first experience of feeling actual love. This is from my view and perspective of this experience. I tell you my thoughts and how I try to reac...
No..classes.? Yeah, we don't have any classes this year. That makes me down a bit. I was hoping to have band with her, but we got separated into two different band classes. We are hanging out a lot than usual too. I know her whole schedule this year and last year in 7th grade, not as if it's creepy. I swear, I'm not a stalker. But, I'm starting to get along with most of her friends which makes me pretty happy. We've also been texting a lot too. She's still the same old hyper self. We had our first band concert a couple months ago in September. She was gorgeous in which I'm being very honest. I couldn't get my eyes off of her when the orchestra and choir were performing. She saw my huge scar on my leg as I was dressing formal for the concert. She asked about it, in which if you guys are curious how I got the scar..it was from me cheering on for her during a kickball tournament and I scratched my leg against a screw of the fence. Don't worry, I'm fine, its just a permanent scar(not being sarcastic.)
But, during the concert, she was asking me about "hentai" <~DON'T SEARCH THAT UP IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS! Okay, I didn't understand what she was saying because I couldn't hear over the noise, so instead she told me it the next day. It wasn't so pleasant.
Over time...
I've been starting to be in a "caring" state. I'm not violent as I was in the past. I've been staying low since I don't want to hurt anyone. I use to punch people as hard as I want,which probably gives them bruises. I cared for others because of her. I can't have things my way all the time. But, all I care for is that, if she is happy, I'm happy. I walk her out at the end of school everyday to talk to her and see how she is feeling. I told her that, I will always be there for her and she can talk to me whenever she needs to. When I said that, I saw a slight smile on her face.
Her smiles are what I live for...
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Sorry for not posting a while, I got a busy schedule and not feeling as well. Posting soon again during Thanksgiving Break!
