insomnia (yoonmin)

((-23-)) || IMPORTANT MESSAGE ||

Log #3

I'm not sure where to begin this, but here I go.

Frist off, hello journal. It's been months since I've written in this. Well me and Yoongi. How do I put this? Well, we've been together more often. I can't really, label what we are but we are something. I guess?

I've never been this open with someone before. I've never had a deep bond with someone before. This entry sounds like a game. I remember those games. Never Have I Ever, Hide and Seek, and card games. But this 'game' is something different.

I just can't put my finger on it. This feeling is beautiful. No. It's more than that. Beautiful, sensational, terrific. No, it's more than words can express. It's what we as people; feel, think, and express. Isn't it?

Can we... explain this feeling? This burning sensation, this thought, this expression. Can we?

This feeling how you feel close to another. This sensation you can't let go.

You know how you feel, yet you can't explain. You contemplate and say to yourself, "Is this real or not?" or "Is this how I truly feel?"

You think to yourself; alone, yet that gets you nowhere to the answer. This answer you're trying to find.

Do I love him? Or do I feel this way because I have to?