Happier || M.H & G.D

"It's not you, it's the ideal of love."

Lillian pov-

"You don't love me?" He questions, removing his hand from mine. I feel my heart drop, I hear his feet shuffling around.

"George, listen to me." I say, he ignores me, still pacing around the room. "George please sit the fuck down." I call out, still nothing. "It's just that, I have done so much! I've try so hard to be better than Matty, and nothing ever works! It feels like everything never compares to what he did. I don't even know how I feel." He huffs out, I could literally feel his anger.

"Baby, no. George please just listen. I never said I didn't, I just said I can't. You don't know how it felt being in a relationship where I never knew if I was loved. Matty would say he loved me, but I didn't know if that was true. Love is so fucking hard, because you never know if it's true. It's not that I don't, I'm just scared George. You're not helping." I rant, of course this happens when I can't even see his reactions.

"Really?" He asks, he sounded shocked. "It's not you, it's the ideal of love." I tell him, I hear him pull up the chair. "I'm sorry for freaking out. I do know that what I feel is 100% real. I can't make you love me, but I can let you know how much I truly do. You don't have to tell me, because I will wait. I'm sorry." He states, my heart fluttering.

"You're not like him. You've got to stop comparing our relationship to that one. It's not about Matty, and I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like you had to one-up that." I apologize, George chuckles.

"Don't apologize, I'm just a jealous twat all the time." George baffles, I smirk. "You sure do sound like him when you say that." I laugh, I hear him laugh too.

"I'm sorry that I haven't said it back, or that I didn't. I don't want to make you think less of this relationship. I just need time to heal and really let go of my fear." I say, George kisses my hand.

"Don't worry about it babe, I'll wait." He comforts, I sigh. "You should get home, I'm guessing it's super late." I tell him, he stands up. "That's a good point, it is late, but I'm staying here. Scoot over." He demands, I laugh. "If you say so. Thank you George." He kisses me quickly, I smile. "It's what I'm here for. It's what I'll always be here for." He states. I carefully lay my head against him.

— 4 weeks later —

"I haven't worn my glasses in 6 years." I complain, george gives me a warm smile. "I think you look great. You need to keep wearing them though, the doctor said it could help strengthen your eyes." George says, he's like my home nurse.

"You're right. I just don't like everything being blurry without them." I state, he frowns. "Hey, don't be like that. Stay positive, remember! Your eye sight has gotten better everyday." He reminds me, I sigh. "It's been 4 weeks." I pout, he sighs. "You're getting better, that's all that truly matters. Plus, your car is fixed up and you can go back to work soon." George says, I smile. "That's very correct, I'm excited. I've got a case of cabin fever. School starts in a few more weeks, I'm really nervous but ready." I state, George looks sad.

"I don't want to leave you in a few weeks." He mourns, I lay my head on his lap. "It'll go by so quick, then I'll be done with school and you'll be back home. We'll be okay." I reassure him, he runs his fingers through my hair. "You're right. I'm just sad to not be with you 24/7." He says, I chuckle.

"You make it sound like I'm fun to be around. I think you need to get out more. Plus, I'll come visit you whenever I can." I joke, he sighs. "It won't be the same." He grunts.

"It will be the same, we're going to be fine. So, cheer up buttercup." I say, booping his nose. "You did not just boop me!" He exclaims, I laugh loudly. "I think I did, whatcha gonna do about it?" I question, he just stares down at me. He didn't even flinch or move a muscle, he just stared.

"That's what I thought, you wouldn't do a thing." I taunt him, he just leans down quickly and kisses me. I smile into the kiss, George pulls back. "What was that for?" I ask, he smiles. "I'm just so in love with you." He murmurs, kissing me again.

My Gillian heart hurts wowzo I love them. Plus, next chapter will be tour time.

P.s, many errors bc like I'm lazy.

P.s.s, I have a project due but instead I did this. Love y'all.