my childhood best friend was molested
by her guitar teacher when she was 7
and i did not know what that meant.i walk too fast for my mother
and i look over my shoulder
every 10 seconds and
i clinch the keys in my fingers
like a knife and i tell myself
to aim for the throat,
aim for the jugular.my friends tell me it's ridiculous,
"nobody ever gets assaulted around here,"
and i don't know how to say,
"what if i am the exception,
what if i am the odd one out,"
or,
"most people just don't ever
say anything because for most people
it isn't the strange man at 3 am,
it's their friend,"
and yet,
i am so scared of that demon
lurking behind every alleyway,
every street corner.my boyfriend walks me home when it's dark
and ignores how i am always scanning,
always searching, because of
that one news story that one time
but he knows. i know he knows,
because sometimes i catch his stare
and they are almost like a silent apology.i don't blame men, i blame the media,
all the movies, shows, and books,
for making a boogeyman out of any male
out past 2 am, and i think i blame myself, too,
because i can't seem to let this shit go,
but it's 1 in 4 college women,
and i count my friends and i do the math
and if it's not me, it's one of them,
and 1 in 4 is too great a chance to
not be scared.my childhood best friend was molested
at the age of 7 and i didn't know
how to talk about it.i'm so scared i won't be able to talk about it.
-c.h.
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how the words come
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