i watch our story on rewind
in black and white.sometimes i wish i could
see the blue of your irises
but i don't think i'll ever be able
to picture us in color again.i don't love you anymore,
i know better than that now,but i still find myself writing about you
late at night when i forget how to breathe
and it's like,how do i learn to breathe again
without it being because of you?i traded a kind love for a powerful love,
and you gave me it--
i still find traces of you in every damn thing,
the backseat of a car and the booth of a restaurant,
i guess in a way we're lasting like we said we would,
and you know,i think about you on friday nights
when my friends are out drinking and i'm sitting at home
writing this stupid fucking book about you
because for some reason i can still trace the shape of your mouth with my finger in the mirror, even now,and i don't think i love you anymore
because it's not that i miss you, it's not that i want you back,
it's just that i still have to justify why i'm always looking for
skeletons in their closet, i still leave the door open because
i don't want to make their awaited exit any more painful,and the thing is, the reason why i can't stop writing about you,
is that despite the cracks in my cheeks and the way my hands shake
when i touch his chest, how i can't seem to stop looking over my shoulder,i still don't regret a single fucking thing.
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how the words come
Poetry"this is the poetry that has come from finally realizing it is okay to be okay but also not okay at the same time." ~ 'how the words come' tells the story of overcoming the aftermath of an emotionally abusive relationship. the book is separated into...