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my friend once called me as a sad-love writer, that whenever i write about love it's almost always sounds sad, even with the happy ones there's always a hint of sadness in between, in the way i choose the words.

i don't know why. but believe me, i am happy when i write about you. loving you makes me happy, all giggly and smiley, even when i am loving you alone still.

maybe that's why even when i write about you it still sounds a little bit sad but i like it. i like loving you alone. it's okay. it's nice. it's like i am giving you something without you noticing. loving you alone is like a constant surprise gift from me to you, delivered anonymously, secret-admirer way. i like the rush. i like the calmness. i like both. i like the thrill. i like the quietness. i like both. i like loving you like this.

and i like you more than i like the way i love you.