02.09
Hi Jimin,
I find it funny how in the first letters I used to write „Hi Jiminie" and overall be super excited about them but now I just feel terrible.
And not just terrible because of the two kisses because I did something much worse Jimin.
After this I know that you won't forgive me but I want you to at least know.
I wanted to write a letter yesterday to tell how much fun I had when we went to have lunch together and then went to the park like we always do.. but I didn't get the chance to.
A couple of hours after you took me home and went back to yours ( it was around 8pm I think ) Jungkook came over. I had no idea he was coming, I didn't even want him to come because I knew what could happen.
He asked me if we could talk. I was unsure at first but then I said yes, I had to tell him we couldn't continue whatever it was that we started.
I was actually drinking wine (hehe) before he came (ya know, it was a wine&netflix kind of friday) so yeah, we took a seat and we started talking while drinking a LITTLE BIT of wine.
Now, I don't want to blame it on the alcohol like people usually do but I know that if I was completely sober I wouldn't have done it.
So, we were talking and when I went to the counter to drink some water he followed me and idk how it all started but I kind of ended up sitting on the counter while making out with him? I know it seems like it's nothing much for me but I promise you, Jimin, I regret everything.
Then yeah, I guess it all kind of escalated quickly and we ended up in my bed and idk, he told me he loves me? He did, I remember. And I told him the I love him back.
Do I really? Well, I can't deny that I felt extremely jealous this last week when I saw you two together cuddling and stuff but what can I do? He's your boyfriend afterall.
This morning when I woke up in his embrace I didn't know how to feel.
I felt happy but I couldn't be 100%
Because I can't be happy knowing that I broke your heart. Well, you don't know that yet but sooner or later you'll find out and I'm scared.
I'm scared for how you'll react.
I'm so fucking scared that you'll do sth you'll later regret. God damn it, I feel awful.
Awfully awful.
I'm sorry Jimin
~Taehyung
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05.09
Hi
Today when we met up you seemed sad.
You were sad. I knew that the moment I saw you because I couldn't see your usual smile.
The usual smile that makes me smile because of how happy it makes you look :)
I asked you why and you told me Jungkook seemed distant. My heart literally stopped when I heard his name.
You said that you feel like he makes things up just not to meet up with you and that you think he doesn't love you anymore.
You started crying and I was trying so much to not let my tears fall down too..
Not just becuase you were sad. Becuase you were sad becuase of me. It's all my fault and I don't know what to do now.
I texted JK to ask him what was going on with him and he told me he couldn't do it anymore.
He said he wants to be with me?
I was so confused.
I was happy, hyung. But I knew I couldn't be happy because you were sad.
I told him to carry on until your birthday because you've been really looking forward to it and idk I just want it too be super special, I don't want you to think about him breaking up with you.
Hope you understand :)
~Tae
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07.09
Helloo,
