A/N i recommend reading this while listening to „Eastside" here🔝🔝🔝🔝- the song is literally what motivated me to write it+ i listened to it on repeat while writing this and it's sO gooD so you should do the same :D
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kth
I still remember.
i remember when we used to be just two best friends trying to enjoy life as much as we could.
i remember freshman year of college. that's when everything started, right? we dreamt of our dorm together, how fun it'd be, the parties, all the girls we were supposed to have.
i remember when we went to our, what was it? second party? you drank a little too much and were so clingy,,,, not that i complained.
i remember when we met up with our new friends and Jiminie asked if we were together. we both laughed and acted so shocked but..why did the question make us smile so much?
i remember when we were playing some stupid game and you had to kiss that girl.. Yeri? i think that was her name. i couldn't watch it so i just went outside. you ran after me and asked what was wrong. that's when i realised maybe you were a little more than just a friend to me?
i remember it was raining and we were both laughing while running trying to get to our dorm. i stopped when we got to the bridge near our campus and told you how pretty the view was.
i remember you said it was the prettiest you've ever seen while looking at me. i was confused. yeah, seoul is nice but...the prettiest one? that's when you took me closer and kissed me like you've wanted to do that for the longest time. maybe you did?
i remember how shy we were towards eachother after that. the others were confused too. what was wrong with us? i don't know what, but i for sure knew it wasn't wrong. not for me.
i remember when we went to our first date. you took me to eat and then we went to our special place. we lied under that tree we loved so much. you looked at me and said i looked „so pretty". i just glanced at your lips and knew that what we had was so much more than what i would've even imagined.
i remember kissing you on your bed as if that was the last day i would've done that.
i remember that night when you said you loved me and i replied with a simple „i love you too".
i remember our first time when i decided i wanted to give you my whole and you decided you wanted to give me yours.
i remember lying on my bed with you, wanting to watch the movie but getting distracted by your soft lips on my neck.
i remember the unamused faces of our friends when they saw us kissing. easier than expected, right?
i remember when you came back from your parents' house all sad. you cried for the first time in so long. i was heartbroken. but you said you didn't care about their opinion, the only important thing for you was us.
i remember when we used to go on our walks talking and laughing about everything. such random things that made me so happy.
i remember our rides on the bus. we used to sit in the back and kiss with others staring at us but did we care? never.
i remember when we fought for the first time because i met up too much with Bogum hyung.
i remember you crying because you thought you would have lost me.
i remember saying you would never lose me. saying we would always be together. always be beside the other no matter what.
i remember when you said you had to go to your parents to talk about everything.
i remember i wanted to come with you but you refused. you were scared of what your parents would tell about me. you didn't want me to hurt. if only we knew.
i remember kissing you so many times as if, again, that was the last time i would have done that.
i remember saying so many i love you's and you laughing and asking me why all that? because i love you so much.
i remember getting that call asking me if i was Kim Taehyung.
i remember saying i was your boyfriend and them replying you got into an accident?
i remember driving so fast not caring about anything around me.
i remember getting here and hearing that you were in a bad state. i felt my heart break more and more.
i remember seeing you so lifeless lying on this stupid hospital bed. we should be lying on one of our beds kissing eachother's everything. pouring our hearts in those so overused i love you's.
i remember falling in love with my best friend and now being scared to lose everything we went through. every kiss, hug, i love you, every conversation about random things or about our future.
i remember when we talked about having a dog or even kids in the future. such silly conversations that meant so much to us.
i remember taking your hand into mine and crying while telling you to please wake up. telling you i love you like i never did. crying while waiting for you to open those beautiful big brown eyes of yours.
I remember you finally opening your eyes and me crying even more cause I could have lost you but no, you were still here.
I remember calling the doctors saying you finally woke up.
I remember when you were finally conscious enough to tell me you love me. I missed those three words so much. Why? Because I missed you. So much.
i love you and i always will.
Such a sappy ending but i was so excited to write this :(( sorry i've been completely mia but i was so not in the modd to write. Even when i wanted to i didn't wven know what to write.
Also, i know i don't write often about this but THANK YOU SO MUCH for idk 7k ? Something like that. Thank yoU💖💓💗💖💘💕💘💗💓💞💖💖💕
