49: Stars

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I turned off the lights

of my bedroom
and I met the darkness.

I used to be so afraid

of the darkness

that my eyes

had always looked at.

I'd been terrified
if that was all

I was going to see

for the rest of my life.

But not now.
I meet it with a smile

and I head to my closet,
careful to not knock into something.

I walk inside

and close the door behind me.
The window is in front of me

from across the room.

I remember being afraid of the dark.
I made me feel isolated
and vulnerable

as if there was nothing I could do.

I remember hating the dark.

I walked towards the window
seeing the moonlight

slip through the glass
and make the room glow
in its pale light.

I reached out my hand
and touch the cool glass.

The smooth and clear surface

against my warm palm.

Then I look up
from above the small lights
and to the night sky.

There was a point

where you couldn't hate the darkness
because if it wasn't dark

the stars wouldn't be as pretty.

The dark sky

was a splash
of blue and purple
with white glitter

spread all over it

in beautiful, wondrous patterns.

My gray eyes

that were blind before

watched the constellations

watched the stars

watched the night sky
show stories and myths.

This view
reminded me of the kiss
I shared with Caleb

just a few hours ago.

The memory made me giddy

and heat wrapped around me
making me smile.

I touched my finger

on my bottom lip
and wondered how a simple kiss
was so powerful.

I wondered

how a simple kiss
would convey so much emotions.

There was a time
I despised the darkness
but when I'm here

under the stars

I don't feel afraid anymore.

Because I know
I'm not alone

watching the stars

from this point of time.

I know people are gazing at these stars
telling stories from the patterns.
And just once

I want to reach for those stars

not to hold it just for me

but to tell stories of these patterns
just how people had done

to show the beauty
of the starry sky.

The buzz of my pocket
brung me out of my imaginations

and back to reality.

I pulled out my phone
and read a message
from the one I love.

Sweet dreams, Rose.

I bite back a squeal
so I won't accidentally wake up my parents
because the message
makes my heart flutter

and my feet bounce
from the happiness
I haven't felt in such a long time.

I love him.

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