letters for my twin // marcus & martinus

day 25

i'm sorry.
i didn't mean anything i said.
it's just so hard.
i want to give up.
i want to see you.
it's hard going to school by yourself when for the last ten years you have been doing it with someone else.
i get dm's on instagram every day.
everything is about you.
mostly fans saying how sorry they are and how they'll always be here.
and then there's the haters.
i don't even wanna say what they have written.
i miss you martinus.
i can't handle the haters on my own.
you always knew what to say to them.
i don't know what to say without getting angry.
you always handled the situation well.
can you come here to handle this one too?
help me.
-marcus