The Boy I Admire From Afar

chapter 9

I woke up hearing the Tv very loud blaring some stupid hip hop who listen to music so loud on a Saturday morning and I know its no other person then my brother .I got of the bed and went down stairs to stop that stupid music so I can fulfil my ritual of waking up by 12 during weekends ,I went down the stairs half awake and went straight to the TV without even saying a word and pressed the power button I turned towards the stairs my eyes half opened and decided to head straight to bed I climbed the first step of the stairs with my eyes half opened I tumbled forward and was about to hit the floor when a hand grip me around my waist preventing me from falling I felt electricity run through my stomach
"Carefully there we don't want you kissing the floor and breaking your nose ,I heard the familiar voice say with a little humor in his voice
The sleep left my brain as my brain registered what's happening Jide is in my house so early in the morning and not only that he is also holding me on my waist
I stood up straight and looked at him straight in the eyes
" why are you here ,I asked him looking clearly pissed off
"I want to apologise about yesterday ,I know what I did was very wrong I shouldn't have kissed you without your consent,Am very sorry"
Now it my turn to feel guilty
"Am also sorry about yesterday,I have no right to slap you even if am going through a lot right I shouldn't retaliate on you"
"You know am here for you ,right" he said with worry in his voice "whatever you are going through I can help you no in fact I will help you ,you can talk to me I will do everything i can to help you
Now am having inner battle with my self,my heart wants me to trust him but my brain doesn't want me to ,I mean after all have gone through and all the heartache and sleepless nights I can't afford to be distracted or hurt again I have my focus and I can't lose it , I looked at him about to turn down the offer when I saw the look on his face ,he look so worried and genuinely concerned for me and before I knew what was happening I hugged him and started crying soaking his shirt wet with my tears
" ife why are you crying, talk to me ,Did I say something wrong ,okay I will leave your house if that will make you stop crying,he said as he was trying to pry my hands from his waist

I held unto him tighter and cried more
"Am sorry please don't go am not crying because of you ,I just have a lot am dealing with right now and I just can't believe i have a friend,I said my voice cracking at the end
" Do you want to talk about it " he asked in a gentle tone
I was about to reply when i heard Daniel shout from the kitchen
"Breakfast is ready,oh you are awake Ife why are you awake so early
" I wonder why ,I answered sarcastically which he was not obvious to or just simple ignored
"What do you mean early ,Jide replied " it 11 in the morning
"Oh Ife doesn't wake up until 1 pm on weekends it a crime to wake up early

I sat down on the table to have bread and coffee for me and tea for others that my brother claimed he cooked while he only boiled water for tea . I put some black coffee in a cup when I remembered I need to brush my teeth ,I stood up heading up stairs when Daniel's voice stopped me
" where are you going
"Am going to brush my teeth
" oh okay but remember to change your clothes when coming down
I looked at my cloth and blushed when I saw what I was wearing
I was in my boxers shorts and sleeveless tank top the way I like wearing little to no clothe to bed ,I ran up the stairs as I heard Jide and my brother chuckling
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Breakfast went well with Jide,he left 30 minutes ago after he received a call from Eniola he promise to call immediately when he gets the chance,and Daniel left immediately claiming he has some appointment ,now am home alone
I went to my room to get some sleep since I woke early up today
I slid under the cover when I heard the familiar song playing oh that my ring tone ,I decided to ignore it but it could be my dad and I don't want him to worry so I stood up so much to my distaste and search for my phone I found it under my bed. I picked the call without even checking the caller's ID
"Hello,I said in a sleepy voice so the person on the line can make it fast and let me sleep
" hello Darling, missed me
The sleep left my eyes as soon as it came,I recognise the voice as a feeling of deju va hit me
W-ho -wh-y ho-w did you get my number, I said shaking so hard I was stuttering
"Oh Darling are you scared of my voice already don't worry I won't bite ,I just want to say hi and since have called left me deliver this message, Don't tell anything to that your little boyfriend I don't want to hurt him, just remember you are mine and mine only
I couldn't say anything I was numb ,I felt hot tears brimming my eyes begging for release
" oh and I have a little present for you
I felt my phone vibrate indicating a message, I opened it and saw a picture of me hugging Jide and crying this morning and also a picture of me looking for my phone under the bed.
"Remember my eyes are on you" and with that he cut the call
I sat on the floor next to the drawer, I was numb I didn't know what to do ,the tears that was begging for release was flowing with so much speed I was surprised ,I hate my life just one silly mistake led me here,for the first time in a while I have a friend who genuinely cares about me but I have to let go of him because of my one time mistake and my worst mistake .I felt sudden dizziness I laid on the cold floor but my mind was to numb to acknowledge the coldness .
I heard my phone ring and saw my dad's name on it,I know i can't pick it,if I do my dad will know something is wrong .I turned my phone off and the thought of being watched lingering on my mind .
I don't know how long I was on the floor I only saw feet inside my room and someone shaking me ,I lift my face and saw Jide that was the last thing I saw before feeling my self slip into unconsciousness.
______________________________________l know you guys hate me due to my slow update but please forgive me I have a very important exam am writing but I promise the next chapter is coming very soon
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