Babysitter | Dolan twins✔

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*Sophia's POV*

*1 week later*

"I'm so sorry Lisa and Sean" I apologize, "Sophia, it's ok, we already told your, it isn't your fault" Lisa said, "But it is!" I cried, "It's not your fault your didn't love Ethan, it's ok" Sean sighed.

I shook my head, I can't stop blaming myself. We were driving for his funeral....

When we arrived I got my speech ready, Soon it was time for Me to speak.

I slowly dragged myself up there, i sat the paper at the stand then got ready.

"Ethan... Was an incredible, sweet, and caring guy. He always knew how to make someone smile, He always knew how to make someone smiled, and to feel loved. He wanted nothing but peace in the world because he cared for every one of us."

"I don't know how many times I have blamed myself, People keep telling me it's not but I just can't think that. I torn apart the twins, their trust for each other, their love, and I couldn't apologize enough." I sniffled.

"Everything Ethan has done for us, I appreciate so much, And i'm sure everyone else does also. Ethan wanted to be an actor, Maybe to change what he always wanted to be, but to me-- us, he is perfect." I looked up at everyone.

"I will miss Ethan, I will remember everything he did, And if I hadn't came in my life maybe he would be the one saying this" I sighed.

"I just want everyone happy and to know how great Ethan was, and how much he didn't deserve what happened. I would do anything to change that, I would want him to be here, not me." I closed my eyes.

"What i'm trying to say is that, I love Ethan more than anything, I'm sure your guys do too, I love you Ethan, I will miss you" I walked down as everyone clapped as Grayson walked up there.

"My brother, was me.. But... how should I say this? Uglier" He chuckled, "Nah i'm joking, I've always been jealous of Ethan. I felt as if everyone liked him more until one day he told me that I get everyone, I guess it was different views" Gray said.

"I will miss Ethan more than anything, I'm going to stay strong for him, And I will love him. Soph blames herself, but if it wasn't for her i'm sure he was going to do this sooner. Maybe he just... couldn't take it" Grayson whimpered.

"I'm not saying that it's ok to kill yourself, because it's not, but, Maybe this is better for him, Not us, but him. He always put people above him, He always made sure I was happy and taken care of" Gray shook his head trying to finish.

"I really don't know how i'm going to cope with my brother gone, but I will find a way. I do know that I will forever love him and never forget him. I won't forget all the times he was there when I needed him" He wiped his tears.

"I was actually really looking forward to chasing around the little Ethan juniors but I guess I won't be able to experience, All I know is that I love him, so much, he didn't deserve this" Grayson gripped onto the side.

"I felt so selfish, I felt so worthless, making him feel this way. I also blame myself and I know I shouldn't, but I still do. Ethan loved every single one of you, And so do I. I know that Ethan would love to tell everyone that your all are worth it, your all are special in a way to him, that's something else I loved about him. Anyways, i'm about to lose it... I love and miss you so much E" Grayson walked down and I stood up jumping in his arms.

"I love you" I whimpered, Grayson cried in my shoulder as we held each other tight. "Ethan does too" I added. "Sophia I want your to marry me" He sniffled, I pulled away and looking at him.

"Will you?" He asked, "Yes" I whispered, He smiled and hugged me again, I wasn't just the babysitter... but I didn't mind it.

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