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💜kim namjoon: lie💜

its been almost a month.
a month since you and namjoon had an actual conversation.
he has been really popular with his band mate BTS but even if we have time, the only conversations we have is: "hey u eaten yet joon?" "are u hungry joon?" "how was today joon?" and all i get is "ok or no."
for some reasons, he has been avoiding me a lot lately. even when we are in the same house, he always goes to his studio when im going to sleep to avoid me. this isnt the worst thing. the worst is.... im scared. I missed my periods for 2 weeks already and keep vommiting when i smell fish or oily food. today.. today shall be the day to test it out. you went to the pharmacy and went to buy 2 pregancy kit jus as namjoon left the house without kissing goodbye. you bought 2. jus to be sure. when i went home, you immdiately went to the toilet, locked the door and peed on the kit(im sorry i have no idea how to use a pregnancy kit. i only watch movies and learned HAHA) and waited for 15 minutes while sitting on the toilet cover. finally, you picked up the courage to look at the kit. the first one you picked up... 2 lines... positive... "calm down y/n maybe its a miscalculation. lets try the second one." you told yourself and tried to calm down. as you slowly reached for the second one and saw the same thing. you crumbled, fell and cried out loud.. you always had a love for kids but with yours and namjoon's current unstable relationship, you werent sure you want this kid anymore and you decided to call him.
**ringing joon☺❤🙆🌻**
namjoon:
hello? why did you call me?
you:
hey joon. can you come back? we need to talk.
namjoon:
yeah sure. i got to tell you something too.
you:
oh? ok.. come back soon. i lov....
**CLICK**
**end of conversation**
you didnt even manage to say i love you to him. finally after an hour of waiting, he came back but something made you tear up a little as the both of you sat in the living room sofa on different seats in total silence. a hickey... you didnt ever give him a hickey. you didnt even give him a kiss yesterday.
"y/n. we need to break up." namjoon said that shocked u.
"joon. we cant. please. Im pregnant and its yours."
"what... dont lie to me. its not true. youre just saying that to make me stay."
"im NOT JOON! WHY CANT YOU JUST BELIEVE ME.... pls joon. you need to be there for the child. our child needs you"
"but i dont need the child. neither do i need you. i never loved you. you were just a toy. i found someone new already."
as he walked out of the living room
"joon.. JOON NO JOON?!" as he already left. tears fell down and you crumbled down not knowing what to do. you went into your room and started packing since he has someone new, im going to leave. after thinking for a while more, you packed everything into your bag and left.
im going to give birth to this child. i love joon to much and i want this child to be my memory. even though it will be fatherless, i promise to love it forever.
you went back to your orignal country without telling anyone. you cut all your contact with BTS members, even seokjin. you best friend.
**time skip**
"Jihyo~ are u excited to go back?"
"ne eomma!" you gave birth to your adorable child named Song Jihyo. You still decided to name her after you. Song. she looked just like her father. cute small eyes and perfect deep dimples just like him... as you stated at her and a tear fell down from your face.
"eomma gwenchana?" as she cleaned your tears away with her tiny hands as you nodded and sat at your plane seat. you chose to teach her both english and korean as you knew and planned you would bring her back to korea one day. she fell asleep soon after boarding the plane as she was up the whole night due to her excitness but to be honest, you werent excited. you were worried to see him again. finally you reached korea and stepped out of the airport. after 5 years, youre finally back in your korea. youve never seen namjoon ever except in the newspaper with his new girlfriend which i recognise. she is an idol too. by the time you reached korea, it was around 7pm KST and its time for Jihyo's dinner. you brought her to the nearest fastfood restaurant near the airport. after so, you decided to take a stroll in a park with her to digest the food faster.
"jihyo ah~ how about eomma bring you to the park eomma always loved when i was staying in korea?"
"Ne eomma! wherever or whatever you like would be as beautiful as you!"
as you smiled, held her hand and walked. shes just like her father. you thought to yourself. you walked with her to the place with the most amount of memories. the fountain. the fountain that namjoon asked me to be his girlfriend. nothing in the park changed much except some new benches. you touched that tree that had a carving of: "song y/n is kim namjoon's no matter what" and you cried a little. lies. you never kept that promise. you thought to yourself when you saw girls screaming a little and jihyo pulling you towards it. "eomma lets go see!" as you smiled and let her drag u along. "OPPA OMG OPPA"
"OPPA SARANGHAE"
OPPA DUOMO KEYOWO!"
were all you heard when you reached there. after pushing your way through you finally saw them. BTS. you tried to run away and carried your daughter up but the crowd was too big to buge through. "y/n?" you heard a familiar voice said. "eomma someone is calling your name."
"e... eom... eomma?" you heard that familar voice say again as you slowly turned your head. Jin was the one calling you. however their sercurity guard pulled them away from the crowd and you thought you were free but no. you were pulled away by the security too as they requested them to. you and jijyo were lead to a cafè that was empty and you see only 6 members there. lucky for you, namjoon wasnt there.
"y/n... where did you go for the past few years? you didnt even tell us" jimin said with a pouty face as you smiled a little and looked at your daughter jihyo being a little shy but taehyung kept making her smile. "eomma.. who are they?" jihyo finally spoke up. "e.. eomma? did i hear that wrong?... y/n you're m.. married?" jin asked with a worried face as taehyung went to pick jihyo up, carried her around and played with her. He's amazing with kids. "WOAH... jihyo youre so pretty and cute! you really look like namjoon hyung!" "kumawo~ hehe but who is namjoon ajjuhsi?" as all the members crowd around her and took a better look at her. "she looks... just like namjoon... whose the father?" you wanted to stay quiet but jihyo didnt. "i dont have an appa." as other members looked in shock. for the rest of the time, all of you sat in silence except taehyung,jin and jihyo playing together. finally, jin spoke up. "y/n? can we talk? alone outside?" you looked up and nodded.
convo time(j-jin ; y-you):
j: so.. how have you been?
y: f... fine what about you?
j: bad. you didnt even tell me you were leaving. i was so worried for you.
y: im sorry. i was just angry and didnt really want anyone or anything to do with you. i dont want to trouble any of you.
j: we are friends. youre problem is my problem too... anyways, is uh....
y: what isit?
j: is uh.. namjoon.... the father of jihyo?
y: ..... yes.. how did you know?
j: im going to be 100% honest okay?
y: pls be
j: after the day you left, namjoon went out with another woman none of us in BTS likes. shes very flirty and even attempted to bring me... into bed. but we all can see one thing in namjoon though..
y: and what is that?
j: he isnt as happy with her compared to you.
y: thats no longer my buisness. he was the one who walk out on me and jihyo. not me. his pride is means too much to him. even more than his daughter and girlfriend.
j: thats why im here to ask you if you want her to have a father.
y: if youre telling me its namjoon, you can forget about it
j: n... no y/n... what about... m.. m... me?
y: YOU?
j: y... yeah you... i actually liked you before namjoon did.. but you never noticed... and namjoon got you first... y/n i promise to love you and jihyo dearly. i will treat her like she is mine.i will love you with all my heart i promise.

you were stunned... so stunned... your heartbeat... its so fast... well of course.
Jin was your first crush before namjoon but he never confessed to you and in order to make him jealous, you went with namjoon and fell in love with namjoon eventually...

y: w... what.... what about your job? w.. wh... what if you dont keep your promise?

j: I WILL TELL THE PRESS ABOUT YOU! I WILL! I PROMISE I WILL Y/N! YOU DONT KNOW HOW LONG IVE BEEN WAITING TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU. IF I DONT I WILL BE KILLED BY A CA..

and you shut him up with a deep kiss as tears fell from your face. you finally feel loved again. what love is again....
"EWWW EOMMA AND JIN OPPA POPO(kissing) CHUCHUU~" you heard jihyo shout from a distance and taehyung covered her eyes and smiled.
"IM SORRY I DIDNT KNOW YOU 2 WERE GONNA KISS I MEAN... I MEAN... UGH" As taehyung cringed and brought jihyo to you 2.
"Eommaa is he appa? you always told me appa is in korea is he my appa?"
you didnt know what to reply and jin did the job
"ne! jihyo ahh im your appa! im sorry for coming to your life after such a long time! appa was busy with work! now appa is your appa! your name shall now be Kim Jihyo!"
"JINJA? APPAA! woah appa is so handsome!"
as jin blushed and smiled at you as the both of you kissed jihyo and the rest of BTS members other than namjoon smiling and cheering.....

little did you know someone was watching you from far upstairs a building....
im sorry y/n. i loved you and our kid. if only i didnt have cancer, i would have stayed with you and loved our child forever.. im sorry.. i trusted jin with our child. i told him to lie to you. im sorry for lying to you again. I love you. so so much.... pls take care of y/n and jihyo well jin. i trust you. i will be blessing you from up there..

he smiled, looked down, turned to the other side of the building to avoid all of you. little did anyone know, he was tired of fighting. fighting alone... as he closed his eyes and let his body fall from the building and the whole world turned white to him....

🌻author note:🌻
HI ALL THANK U SO MUCH FOR WAITING IM SO SORRY. i might go hiatus for the time being due to exams:( but i will post asap! i know this was bad but BOOP. love yall lots!
lots of love,
Mrs KimPark❤