Chapter 30
I felt Jax on my chest. Hinawakan niya yung dalawang kamay ko at ni-lock niya sa kaliwang kamay niya. Yung kanang kamay naman niya, hinawak niya sa legs ko at sinimulan niyang iangat yung dress na suot ko. He ripped the side of it at lumabas na yung underwear ko.
“Jax! Jax Ano ka ba!” sinigaw ko sa kanya pero parang wala siyang naririnig. “Tumigil ka na! T-tama na!”
Hindi ako makagalaw sa sobrang bigat at sa sobrang lakas niya. He was quiet. He just kept on going doon sa ginagawa niya. It was as if meron siyang barrier sa tenga niya at parang wala siya doon.
He leaned closer and he started kissing me sa collarbone ko. Panay ang iwas ko pero wala akong magawa. I was stuck there like a rag doll na sinisira.
My screams turned into cries, and a few minutes later… I was too lightheaded to even function.
Everything was blurry sa paningin ko. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa pag-iyak ko o dahil sa nahihilo ako. Naririnig mo ba ako Alex? Nasaan ka ba? Hindi ba usually nandito ka kaagad? Bakit wala ka pa?
“ZOE!” narinig ko na may sumigaw.
May naaninag ako na nakatayo habang nakahiga ako doon. I’m pretty sure it’s Alex dahil sa boses pa lang. I tried to ask him a question, kung bakit ngayon lang siya, pero walang lumalabas sa bibig ko. I don’t think he’s doing anything either. I can still feel Jax’s weight on top of me. Pero wala na siya sa dibdib ko.
I saw Alex put a hand on Jax’s shoulder, “You don’t want to do this.”
“Shit lang!” sinigaw ni Jax at inalis niya yung kamay ni Alex sa balikat niya, “So, ano na ngayon? You’re here to tell me that something as natural as having sex is a sin now?!” narinig ko na tinanong niya kay Alex, “Mind your own fucking business.”
“Making love is natural. And I’m telling you…” narinig ko na mahinahon na pagkakasabi ni Alex, “This is not it. Trust me, you don’t want to do this.”
Parang galit na galit si Jax nun. “Get the hell out of my house!”
“This is lust, Jaxon.” Sinabi uli ni Alex, “Let her go. I advise you, not to do this.”
I don’t know what kind of magic he does, or maybe because he is an angel, pero parang nawala yung bigat ni Jax sa akin. Sa sobrang labo ng paningin ko, nakita ko lang na may kinuha siyang damit doon sa sahig, and Jax was out of the room.
I was just laying there like I was paralyzed.
“Hey,” narinig ko na sinabi ni Alex sa side ng bed. He touched my cheek with his index finger, “You’re okay now. I am sorry.”
Itinayo niya ako nun at parang natulala pa rin ako sa nangyari. Iniupo niya ako doon sa gilid ng kama. I was holding my ripped dress to cover my chest, pero parang walang naitutulong yun. It just fell on my lap at nakalabas na yung bra ko.
Alex stood up and he was looking down at me. I was not there to even bother to look up at him. Ang alam ko lang, niyakap niya ako and I leaned to hug him by his waist.
And the tears just kept flowing like it was not going to stop.
***
How I got home after that night, hindi ko alam.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Sacred Rule of Love - (PUBLISHED 2019)
RomanceZoe Aldana cannot catch a break. In her anger and grief, she summons the man in her portraits - ang kaniyang guardian angel na si Alexus. As she tries to learn why her angel manifested himself, a young man named Jax enters the picture. Jax - like Zo...
