Chapter 45
Me? Pregnant? What a joke.
“Stop playing around! Buntis? Ako?” tinuro ko pa yung sarili ko, “Huwag na nga tayong maglokohan!”
“Sa tingin mo nakikipaglokohan ako sa iyo?” sinagot naman niya sa akin kaagad. Mukhang nagagalit na si Jax sa akin nun, “It’s not impossible Zoe. I’m sure you remember that night? We both don’t know what happened.”
Nung sinabi niya sa akin yun, saka ko naalala yung sinabi niya. Willing na akong i-deny sana na hindi ako buntis—but then there’s that night. Natahimik akong bigla nung maalala ko yun.
Oh my God. What if…
When Jax saw my realization, saka lang siya nag-drive ng tuluyan. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Takot? Tuwa? I’m at a blank right now. Now that it’s finally here, it’s not a matter of being financially ready to raise a kid. The issue is, am I emotionally ready if it turned out to be true?
“I uh… it can’t happen, right?”
Jax looked at me in disbelief, “What do you mean? I’m pretty sure that’s how it works Zoe. Ngayon, kung may alam ka pang ibang paraan kung paano ka mabubuntis, well you gotta’ let me in on the secret dahil hindi ko alam.”
“Even if I am, hindi ako ready!” sinigaw ko sa kanya, “Ikaw rin hindi ka rin ready!”
“Don’t insult me okay?” He slammed his hand on the steering wheel kaya bumusina pa yung sasakyan niya, “You don’t tell me if I’m ready for anything because I know what I am capable of. If you turned out to be pregnant, I’ll be ready. I don’t know about you, but I’m ready. If I did this, my arms are wide open and I’ll have no questions about it.”
Napatingin ako sa kanya nun. Somehow, I did insult Jax. Siguro nga hindi siya ang may problema kung hindi ako. I think so little of him like he just can’t take on the responsibility. I’m the one that needs help and not him.
“I’m sorry…” lumabas na lang sa bibig ko.
He glanced at me really quick, “You should be.”
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“Tama na! Ayaw ko na…” narinig ko na sinabi niya sa kabila ng telepono, “Matutulog na ako…”
“Sir Armando naman… dali na…” I asked of him on the phone.
The line cut off. Binabaan na talaga niya ako ng telepono.
To be honest, hindi ko rin ineexpect na magiging magkaibigan kami ni Armando Fitacelli. He wasn’t very nice when we met him, pero ngayon na wala na si Alex—we became sort of civil with each other. Surprisingly enough, he’s one of the reasons why I’m still holding on to my sanity. He’s still very nasty to me—that’s for sure. Pero lately, he’s a little bit more open. He’s like a very grumpy grandfather I never had.
I’ve been having conversations with him in the past few days. Nung una weird pa—at ilang baba ng telepono at mura ang tinanggap ko. Pero finally, napagod na rin siya siguro sa akin—o baka naman talagang mabait rin naman siya deep inside—kaya kinakausap na rin niya ako ngayon. He did ask me something I never expected, “Kasama mo pa ba yung anghel?”
I told him what happened at nanahimik lang siya. Nakinig lang pero wala daw siyang opinyon dahil wala daw siyang alam sa ganun. He got mad at me for being stubborn at kung bakit hindi daw ako nakinig sa kanya. He also blamed me for what happened. Sana daw makonsensiya ako sa ginawa ko kay Alex dahil masama daw talaga akong tao.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Sacred Rule of Love - (PUBLISHED 2019)
RomanceZoe Aldana cannot catch a break. In her anger and grief, she summons the man in her portraits - ang kaniyang guardian angel na si Alexus. As she tries to learn why her angel manifested himself, a young man named Jax enters the picture. Jax - like Zo...
