Trap With You (Shardon)

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"Ma, Im sorry. I disappoint you. " malungkot kong sabi sa aking mama habang nakayakap ako sa kanya. My face filled with tears. Simula ng dumating ako galing airport galing manila at gulat na makita ako ni mama sa gate ng bahay namin, di parin matigil ang patak ng aking luha. Paulit ulit akong humihingi ng tawad.

" anak this is not your fault. Mas mabuti nga na umuwi ka. Paano kung may nangyari sayo doon. Mas ikamamatay ko yun. Youll be safe here. Wag mong isipin ang utang natin. We can talk to Mr. Bernardo regarding with it. May naipon na akong 300thousand. We can pay 200thousand for next few months." Pagpapagaan ng loob ni mama sa akin. Di man sabihin ni mama, alam kong nangutang na naman sya sa ibang tao para makabayad kami, still it is not enough. At mas malala, utang pa din iyon na kailangan naming bayaran in due terms. Hay buhay. Its complicated.

" ma, if you want. I will talk to Mr. Bernardo. Ayokong gawin mo na naman na lumuhod sa harap. I cannot forgive him for making you do that. " galit kong panayam.

"Hindi anak. Ako na pupunta sa kanya. This is not your problem." Napasinghap ito bago maiyak iyak. Alam kong nahihirapan ang mama ko. All her life she sacrifice herself for us.

" no ma. I will." Giit ko.

Isang linggo kong iniisip kung ano ang sasabihin. Kung paano ko haharapin ang lalaking pinag-uutangan namin. Im ashamed now to face him. I didn't fulfill the promise I've said few months ago.

Huminga ako ng malalim ng nasa mataas na gate na ako ng mansyon nila. I was about to doorbell the main gate when a sound of car approaching in. Napatingin ako sa isang black midsize car na may tatak na chevrolet. I dont ussually recognize brand new car but my friend, Alex, used to love cars at palagi nya itong binabanggit everytime we meet for chitchat with the barkada.

To my surprise the side doors of the car flip side up, amazed on how it looks but then failed to amazed again on the one driving it. Its him. The deep rooted eyes of him that striking my whole body. He as if questioning me from head to toe why I am here infront of their big gate.

Ngumiti ako ng mapait sa kanya. He did not mind it and close the side of the car. And when the gate open, he talk with the guard and rush inside of the mansion. Tumingin naman ang guard sa akin at ngumiti.

" Ma'am pasok na kayo. Hihintayin daw po kayo ni sir sa loob." Ngumiti ako ng mapait sa guard but at the back of my mind seems boiling for irritation. That man is devil. He could talked straight to me when he stop to see me yet he passed by me without any words said. Kinalma ko ang sarili. I need to calm myself before we talked.

Pagdating ko sa mansyon. Nakita ako ng katiwala nila. She said that her boss is waiting at the pool side. Huminga ako ng malalim para mawala ang kaba sa aking dibdib. As I trail to the way to the pool, I slowly recognized the strict aura of this man. He sat on the chair while sipping a glass of orange juice. On the table is a bunch of paper that he scan.

Bumuga ako ng malalim na hininga. I'm preparing to say a words when his deep voice started to envade mine.

" Sit!" Just one word and Im gone. I immediately sit infront of him while squeezing my palm to make me feel easy. Nangangatog ang tuhod ko. But I still have the guts to stare at him while he sips again the glass of juice.

" ahm... can I .." I started the conversation but I got a cold stare at me. Tila napipi ako doon.

" you will pay?" Tanong nya. Tanong na ewan kung magbabayad ba ako or wala akong pambayad. But I nodded as a response.

"But I will just give 300thousand" nakakunot itong bumaling muli sa aking direction at nasilayan ko ang biglang pagkurba ng ngiti nito, quick but mesmerizing.