Trap With You (Shardon)

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I was addicted on how he kissed me. Has he that certain chemicals that keep me insane?

Kahit noon pa, sobrang nakakaliro ang mga halik nito sa akin. Even I know that we should not do it. Tinuruan ako ng magulang ko na may bagay lang na gawin ng lalaki at babae Kung mag-asawa na sila. I am nurse but I'm an old fashion one. Alam ko ang term na intimate kiss, holding hand, intercourse, sex and so on. But I don't have that direct experienced about it.

Since I meet him. He has that impact that let me do it. Bakit?

Is it like an Addiction?

As I know:

Addiction is a chronic disease characterized by drug seeking and use that is compulsive, or difficult to control, despite harmful consequences.

It involves self control. Addicted person keep on seeking for more and didn't know the word Control.

Did I have no control over my own desire?

I bet I did not have right now.

He deepen the kisses that almost make me grasp for air.

He is only gently and slowly touching my shoulder, arm, waist. It feels me so much heat from those touch. And I like it.

He then stop in between our kisses and stare at me with Lust. Pero may pagpipigil sa bawat galaw nito sa akin.

I want him to continue it. But I laughed at myself of thinking to rush about doing it.

Am I too persistent? Baka sabihin nya ang bilis kong bumigay sa kanya. Alam kong there are still things that we need to do, than what are relationship right now.

He heaved a deep breath in my nape, which gave me goosebumps.

"You better go to sleep Tanya or else I will surely do what you are thinking now."

Tatayo na Sana ito ng pigilan sya.

Nagkunot ang noo nitong nakatingin sa akin.

"Why? Your a man. You can do it. It's your need after all?"

Napangiti sya ng mapait. Mali Ata ang timpla ng dila ko Doon.

Malay ko ba. Baka he is a womanizer. Baka niloloko Lang nya talaga ako. Kahit sinabi nya noon na gusto nya ako but I don't take those words seriously, Lalo pa na ang daming sakit ang pinagdaan namin dalawa.

"There are time for that. And not today. So stop tempting me.",, he showed his evil smile.

He quickly get up from me. Nakakunot ko naman syang tinignan.

"don't look at me na parang naiinis ka na nabitin tayo. I make you my wife first before doing it with you. Kaya wag mo akong pikotin",, he then winked.

Mas lalong namula ako sa hiya at inis sa kanya. Lalo na nangingiti at nang iinis ang tingin nito sa akin.

Is he saying that I'm the one who wanted it and seduced him at the first place? Ang kapal.

Sa inis ko ay tinapon ko ang unan sa kanya. Kinuha ko ang kumot at tinakpan ang nahihiya Kong Reaktion.

Narinig ko na lamang syang tumatawa.