Trap With You (Shardon)

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It hurts hearing those words from him. I learn to love him, but I learn to hate him now. Pareho kaming sinaktan ng pagkakataon. I can feel his pain after losing his so called Dad while me having the pain of losing my Papa.

Sa pagkakataon na iyon. Pareho kaming nasasaktan. Ramdam ko sa mga mata nya ang ang galit at puot. Pero di ko maintindihan ang parte sa aking puso na naiintindihan kung ano man ang nararamdaman nya. But I hate him by doing it to my father. I hate more the facts, that I let myself fall inlove into his trap.

Destiny is so cruel. Why he let us meet? Why all of this things happen? Can he make everyone person life in easy?

Pero talagang walang makakapagsabi sa tinakdang mangyari. It will be happen again if it was destined. Masakit lang isipin na ganito ko nakilala ang unang lalaking nagpatibok sa aking puso. Sa ganito binigay ng pagkakataon na makilala sya, bago man magkaroon ng magandang memorya ay tuluyan na nitong kinuha. All happen as what destiny planned. It hurts but I must accept it.

" Pero...", may nais pa itong ituloy pero di nya masabi sabi sa akin.

Tinitigan ko ito ng may pagmumuhi. Hindi ibig sabihin na naiintindihan ko ang sakit nya, ay papalampasin ko ang mga ginawa nya sa amin. I hate it, he is the reason why my father died.

" your wish came true.", paos na tinig ko, iniwas ko ang matang gusto na namang tumulo.

"yeah!", he casually said, may konting crack pa sa boses nito.

" well...", iniwas ko ang mata dito. His eyes are full of pain but also a hit of emotion that I dont understand at this moment. As if he wanted something to say or do with me but he cant, maybe because what had happen to us. Total, talagang wala namang issue sa kanya.  its just pure business sa kanya, he just used me to look for my father, to make sure that my father will show up once he knew I was with Bernardo Corp. And make sure that he will get what punishment for killing Architect Flavier, dead or alive, he will give the verdict to him.

It was me. Who only fall for him. Ako lang itong tanga na minahal ko sya na pinaramdam ko sa sarili ko na baka pwede. Yes, Ms. Dianne was right from the start, I will be a useless being after all, at ako nagpagamit din dahil lang sa pera.

But there something in his eyes that say otherwise. Why would he went here? Why would he waste his time for me? Maybe Guilt beg him to go here. Yeah, baka nga nagiguilty lang sya sa pangloloko sa akin, that is why he is here.

" our business... is finish here. Mr. Bernardo.", may diin sa nangingiyak na tono ng boses ko. " I will pay the remaining money."

Tumalikod na ako sa kanya. Ang mga luhang gustong tumakas lahat sa mata ko ay dahan dahang bumuhos. Itinaas ko ang aking kamay, signaling to say goodbye, dahil kung magsasalita pa ako ay sigurado akong bubuhos na ang sakit at puot sa puso ko.

Starting that day from father, I feel numb. Parang wala na yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, parang may pansamantalang anesthesia na tinurok sa akin para wala akong maramdaman.

I've became strong. My mother, who is fragile now because of her heart is wreck, turning into pieces that cannot fix. Kaya dapat bilang anak nya, I should be strong. My younger brother Clark is too young to understand. He cried thinking that Papa just left us to go to heaven. He was just hugging my mother who still suffering from our loss.

Araw ng libing ni Papa ng bumisita muli ang mga pulis. They just informing us that the killer was a wanted person, a serial killer. The incident of my father, according to them, was related to a drug syndicate, like what happened to Tito Hector.

But for me, I dont want to believe on it, mas lalo ko paniniwalaan na ang lahat ng nangyari ay may kinalaman sa Bernardo Corp. Whoever behind this crime, must pay for it. If it will be Jom, I will make sure he will pay for it.