I let go of everything I wanted,
Changed myself to your idea of perfection.
Let go of the dreams I wanted to pursue,
Only to make you happy.
I let go of my dreams,
to follow the maps you drew for me.
I broke all my crayons and
started colouring all my smiles grey.
I left the boy with big, ambitious dreams behind
because he scared you a bit.
He was too fearless for you.
"Too mature," you thought.
I changed everything
about who I wanted to be.
I tried to reach the stars you drew for me
without, for a second,
thinking about the skies that I dreamt of reaching
or who I wanted to be,
because I just wanted to be your favourite again.
I wanted you to look at me the way you'd look at him.
I wanted to be your whole world again,
but I failed.
You never saw me
and I was a stranger to myself.
I changed myself,
all for you,
but you still didn't care enough to notice the changes i made all for you.
YOU ARE READING
Black Butterfly
Poetrythis is a book filled with original poetry by Kamogelo Modirwa. This book describes the journey I went through to find myself again after the many internal battles I had to fight and the journey that I needed to go on before I could earn my wings...
