Mine

VI

The air outside was once again nice and cool. The sky was clear and full with stars too. It was almost a perfect night. Sadly it has to be ruined when I finally decided to explain things to Jungkook. My weird fears and insecurities. All the things that haunt me.

"Hey baby," Jungkook comes over to me and places a quick kiss on my lips before sitting next to me on our porch. The porch has a nice over look of the city that we live about twenty minutes away from. The lights of the city looked really pretty too from here. It was another thing I found calming. Just sitting up here and watching everything in the city change just by how the lights work.

"Hey Kookie," I reply. I don't really want explain, but I know I was going to before our job. It'll make everything easier and us work a lot better together.  "Shall I start explaining?" Jungkook hums in response. I take a deep breathe before starting and looking durex at Jungkook.

"Just to let you know, besides yourself, the only things that scare me are what have been caused by previous jobs," my gaze soon leaves Jungkook and goes back to the city. "Let's start with the fear that caused me to act weird last night. I went on a job with a newbie. It started well until they slipped up, taking me out with the tranquilizer instead of our victim. I woke up in a car and people tried to do horrible things. Next my fear of being alone. Every time I don't have someone I know around me, I get back to thinking about the times I've been caught and thrown into some weird place, alone and tormented."

"Before you continue. Why didn't you disagree to not go on these jobs?" Jungkook asks out of the blue and cutting me off. My body tenses up immediately. Fall wasn't the greatest of agencies. I've built it up as a kind of just brute force place, but it's not.

"For me it was do the job, or lose everything. Each time a job went wrong, it was because they would let a newbie do the hard part and make me fix it up. Those weird places have given me so much anxiety. That's why I haven't gone on a single one man job yet while here at Bangton if it's label a bit difficult. I'm scared. Now lastly, any form of violence scares me. Seems funny that a hitman is saying that, but it's true. Fall would punish you if you didn't obey. I was trapped there and that's why Yoongi said that I would put up a fight against you to bring me over to Bangton. He knows that they would of hurt me some way if I just up and left them." I could feel some tears go down my face. I know it's not sad or anything from what I'm simply saying, but the trauma is something I can't get rid of.

Jungkook was speechless for a minute before he got up and walked over to me. His arms embraced me while I bury my face into his chest saying a few apologies about me seeming like a weakling. Jungkook pushes me away and locks eyes with me. I wanted to look away, but his eyes kept mine captive.

"You're not weak," he says. His voice holding a dark tone. "You're strong for going threw and not wanting to put your life on the line." I look at him confused. A normal person would due whatever they could to get out of their job if they were strong. I stayed because of the fear caused of losing my life. Fall thinks I'm dead because I never returned from the last job I was sent on by them.

"But I was scared the whole time I was with them. I feared losing my life and obeyed to keep it," I respond back quickly. Jungkook shakes his head. I was confused now.

"But you didn't. You joined my company and now you're dating me," Jungkook says softly. I felt my body get picked up bridal style by him. I grab onto him filled with a bit of fear. He normally gives me hints of what he's doing before actually acting. I go to look where I was being carried, but our house was bit too dark for me to tell exactly. All I knew was that we were at least heading to a bedroom.

From the feeling of silk sheets on a bed, I could tell it was my room. His room had cotton sheets unlike mine. My whole body was then trapped underneath his. Something seems off from him though. He would normally be a bit more clear about why he was wanting this, but I couldn't tell why now. Especially after I told him about some of my fears.