Shoot your own shots

(Chapter 10)

Get out!

Antonio's P.O.V
I take a shower and I walk out of the bathroom and my phone is ringing I look at it hoping it's Jocelyn calling to say she's at the airport but no is gabby
"Hello?" I say to gabby
"Antonio you need to get to Chicago med Jocelyn was rushed there!" Gabby says like she was crying
"What? how? what happened gabby? I'm on my way" I ask questions
"I'll explain down at med just hurry I though she was going to be okay at first she just had a broken arm and a collapsed lung but it got worse!" She says then hangs up I get up put on a shirt and jeans put my shoulder holster on and put my guns in it and I put my leather jacket on and leave my house after locking it I head to my car and rush to med

Once I get there I park my car and run into the hospital and Maggie is about to talk but dr.Rhodes points towards her room
"Antonio she's strong but it's not looking to go in there" Dr. Rhodes says patting my shoulder
"Please do anything you can to help her" I say on the verge of tears
"I will" he says and I walk to her room and gabby comes over to me
"Okay what happens gabs?" I ask her
"Okay so..." she tells me everything that is going on with Jocelyn, I walk over to Jocelyn's bed and hold her hand then I see her eyes open slowly and I hover my hand above her face to block some of the light from the room because it's hard for your eyes to adjust to the lighting if you want to know how I know that it's because i had my fair share of hospital visits.
"Where am I" Jocelyn ask
"Chicago med" I say to her and she shoots up in her bed
"HANK!!" She yells and he runs in she starts taking her iv's out of her arms
"We need to go to New York now" she says standing up and dr. Rhodes walks in

Jocelyn's P.O.V
"Jocelyn please get back in the bed" he asks me
"I have things to do doctor no offense to you but hospitals are hell holes and I don't need to be here I need to get my sister and Mom from New York now!" I say walking toward the door then I feel a needle in my neck and I remember falling back and I see hank catch me and everything goes dark

Antonio's P.O.V
Dr. Rhodes sedates her and she falls back before I can catch her so hank does and they take her back to the bed and dr.Rhodes hooks her back up to Iv's "we will keep her under until she can leave we don't want her to try and leave again" Dr. Rhodes says to us and we nod

(2 days later)

Hanks P.O.V
Yesterday I got a call from olive benson that she was called to someone's house to do an investigation and they found Jocelyn's Mom dead supposedly from an overdose and I can't help but feel that it's my fought I could have went down to New York when Jocelyn was in the hospital but Olivia is currently flying to Chicago with her sister so I can be her guardian for right now. Dr. Rhodes has said she should wake up today sometime but she can't be working for some time so I'm giving her furlough for now but something that surprises me is that I haven't seen Antonio since the day she came her which really pisses me off because rumors got back to me that her and Antonio are together which isn't surprising because of the way they act but that's beside the point I'm trying to make...

Jocelyn's P.O.V
I finally wake up and I see hank Erin and Justin hanks son in my room
"Good morning or night everyone I don't know what time it is due to my blinds closed" I say smiling they get up from there seat and Justin opens the blinds
"Good morning then" I say noticing the sun is just rising and they laugh and Erin hugs me
"Not so tight my poor arm" I say to Erin
"Oh sorry joce" she says straitening back up
"It's okay" I say then notice Antonio isn't here
"We're Antonio?" I ask looking specifically at hank
"I'm not sure he hasn't been here since the day you got here!" Hank says looking mad
"Maybe he's busy" I say shrugging my shoulders
"I doubt that" Justin mumbles to me
"What's that Justin?" I ask
"Nothing it's just I think you need to leave him he's not something good to be around he has cheated on his ex wife with several CI's that also came up in the divorce with Laura I'm just trying to look out for you as a friend don't look at it as if I'm trying to hurt you" Justin says stepping closer to my bed
"Okay Justin How do you know all of this shit" I say to just as if he is foreshadowing my relationship
"I just do okay-" he says before hank disrupts him talking
"Can I talk to you in Private?" He says emphasizing the word "Private" toward Erin and Justin to step out of the room which they do
"Yeah sure what's going on?" I ask as he sits on my bed
"It's about your mother..." he says sadly
"What about her?" I ask
"She was found dead in her leaving room yesterday supposed cause of death is overdose but no one is sure yet! Detective Olivia benson has informed your brother on what happened and he has asked for you to call him once your out of the hospital as for your sister she being brought here in by plane accompanied by detective Olivia benson I'm really sorry" hank say to me and I start crying

"I no longer have any parents there all gone oh my gosh I should have been there that day and I went to go save those bozos from that SUV if I didn't go in they would be dead and they'd be taken care of and I would have been back already and having my mom in a safe environment to help her with her addiction and my sister would have been in a safe home with you" I say crying
"I need to tell you something more but I don't know if right now is the time!" He says more like asking
"Tell me I can take it?" I say
"Janice and Greg aren't your parents me and my deceased wife Camille are" he says
"What the fuck do you mean hank I'm a shay not a voight your my Sargent not my fucking father please explain to me NOW!" I snap at him
"Justin is older then you by two months Camille thought it was going to be to dangerous to have more then one kid because there are a lot of people after me internally and we divided to give you to a couple who had a hard time having children we obviously didn't give you to anyone until we checked into there criminal record but I had all intentions on finding once your turned 18 then it got kinda hard once the shays changed your last name to shay" he says to me as I try to understand
"So I'm your daughter and my name is 'Jocelyn Alex voight'?" I ask him
"Yes but not yet I wanted to tell you before I I asked you a question!" He says
"What question?" I ask
"Do you want your last name changed to voight?" He asks
"I don't know I'm not sure how to feel pissed at you or relieved that not all my parents are gone?" I say
"It's okay is your pissed I should have made more of an effort to find you"
"So instead of trying to find me you adopt Erin and help her since I was 24 I had to deal with my mother and her stupid ass addiction to all sorts of shot hank I figured out how to feel, I feel pissed" I say pissed as fuck
"I'm sorry I can't explain that I have no excuse at all and it's shameful please if you won't except my apology now please soon because Justin is pissed at me for not telling him as well and I'm sure he wants to spend time with you" hank says
"Get out!" I say to him
"Jocel-" he say but I interrupt him
"Get out" I repeat again he gets up and leaves leaving me to think about all of this and sink it in...