Shoot your own shots

(Chapter 15)

Jocelyn

"What's that?" I say to antonio

"I know you were doing it because of me" Antonio says looking down...

I look at him as he continues

"Jay told me" he finishes

"Look antonio. I didn't want to end up this way" I say

"No one does" he says

"Yeah" I say looking down

"I'm sorry I put you through that. I really am. It was a mistake. I don't want anyone else besides you. Honestly" he says looking me in the eyes

"You said that before too antonio" I say to him

"This time I mean it" he says

"How am I supposed to know that? That your not lying again" I say letting go of my hand

Antonio gets up and gets down on one knee.

"Antonio what are you doing" I say

"Look, I'm not proposing. It's a promise ring. To promise to protect you and love you. Only you. Jocelyn shay. No one has ever made me as happy as you do." He says

"Antonio if you fuck up again. I'll get severide to kill you" I say to him as he gets up and hugs me tight

"That won't be necessary because I won't hurt you ever again" he says slipping the ring onto my finger

"I love you" I say kissing him

"I love you too, and hopefully one day I can get down on one knee again. And ask you to be my wife. But we got some stuff we need to figure out first" he says holding me close

I look out the door too see everyone looking in

I took my eyes at them as they amstart laughing I flip them off

"So much from privacy" I say smiling at him as he looks back and sees everyone

"Aye. Who doesn't wanna spend time with the crew" he says

"Right now? Not me" I say chuckling and getting up

"Uh where do you think your going?" He says grabbing my arm

"I think I'm going to go find severide" I say grabbing my fluid stand as will walks in

"I was just coming to get you" will says

"I got it myself but thankyou" I say unhooking myself from some of the things

Will walks behind me to make sure I'm okay as Antonio walks beside me

"Severide who said you can get hurt?? Because I don't remember giving permission" I say walking into his room looking at his big goofy grin

"Yeah I know. But I'm very spontaneous. You never know what's gonna happen" he says looking at me

"What's up with you? Why are you injured?" He says seeing me in a hospital gown

"Eh little issue I forgot to mention before" I say looking down

He pats his bed as I go to sit down on it

"Now you can tell me" he says

"Well I had a little issue with some drugs. After we cleared 51 I got in my truck and took my next fix. Overdosed and narcanned. And taken here" I explain to him

"Why didn't you tell me?" He says

"I didn't tell anyone. Only person who knew was jay. He found out." I say to him fiddling with my fingers

"I'm always here to talk, you know that! I don't judge...hell I don't have room to judge I had the same issue. But that doesn't make it okay" I say to him

"I'm sorry" I say looking at him

"It's okay, just next time...tell me so I can help" he says kissing my forehead.

"Promise" I say smiling

"Is that a ring. Sorry but I didn't notice that when you came running in with a gun" he says looking at my finger

"Ah yes, promise ring. Antonio. We are back together!" I say to him with a smile

He looks at me with a weird look

"Don't worry, I already told him that if he hurt me that you'd kill him" I say to him with a laugh

"Ah okay, now I feel much better" he says

"I knew you would" I say and we laugh

"Jocelyn. They need you back in your room."Erin says walking in

"I'll talk to you later then severide" I say hugging him and getting up

"Yesss ma'am" he says with a mock salute

I walk out of his room and walk into my room to see the drug counselors there ready to talk to me...