Wilted Lies

Chapter 8

Jungkook's Pov

I don't understand anymore.
Ever since the day we were partnered
I noticed the change.

When I look at him, he is already starting, and to say I'm okay will be wrong, I find myself falling for the same person over and over again.

The way his smirk slowly turns into a smile when we look at each other is the best feeling ever.

All my life I thought Kim Taehyung will never look at me the way I look at him.

And here we are totally staring into each other's eyes blurring the people around us, it's not the same way how I look at him though.

But even with all this staring I can't help but feel flustered, my heart flutters every time our eyes meet.

I'm not used to this.

I never craved attention until now, all I want is him to look at me and not at the girls who surround him, I want him to crave me like I crave him, I want him to smile when he see me.

I want him to want me like I want him.

But why do I feel like it's a lie, it's hard to believe that some like  him will ever want me. All I am is

Weak

Pathetic

Ugly

Useless

Hopeless

I shut my ears in an attempt to not hear the voices. But it's useless it won't stop it never did, I was stupid to ever desire something that I'll never get. I hate how when everything seems fine but then my head messes it all up. I'm not fine.

"Jungkook"

Please stop.

"Jungkook!!"

"Huh?" I snap at the voice which called out my name, I look ahead and see hoseok hyung looking at me with concern.

"You spaced out again"

"I-I did, I'm sorry, what were you saying?"

"I was saying we have a dance class today, don't forget"

Oh shit how could I forget, dance is literally the only thing that makes me feel confident, it makes me feel free and I love doing it.

"Yeah thanks for reminding hyung" I said smiling.

"Oh would you look at that, our kookie is smiling more than usual"hoseok hyung stated.

"You should smile more kookie it looks good on you" Jin hyung said to which both jimin and hobi hyung nodded.

I blush at the compliment and look down.

Is it really true that I started smiling more, it's not always fake anymore.

"Thanks hyung" I said still blushing.

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Taehyung's Pov

Okay I admit I might be liking Jungkook more than I would ever admit even to myself.

I just can't get him out of my head.

Everytime I stare at his pretty doe eyes I only see him stare back but he avoids his gaze quickly making my own heart flutter at his cute reaction.

I've never experienced this before, the feeling of wanting to be a certain someone, to hold someone so tight they gasp for air.

I never wanted someone as people always wanted me I never felt the urge to kiss cuz I find it gross but why do I feel like I'm desperately in need right now.

I hate it, I hate to have someone's effect on me.

As we enter the class my eyes immediately search for him. When I saw him smiling with his friends, I almost smiled too but I covered it well. He looked so beautifully, more than any girl I Ever dated, he looked so pure, his smile was cute and I wanted to make him smile more.

Oh boy....

Get your shit together Taehyung you are the school's fuckboy you don't fall in lo-

Wait wait what was I  about to say.

Even though I wanted to look away my eyes seemed to be fixed on him and I saw how his smile dropped and instead he stared at the floor frowning. I wonder why does he always do that.

"Fuck it's our dance class and I really don't wanna go" I heard Yoongi complaining as I looked at him.

"Shit dude we can't even skip like always cuz it's raining outside and the coordinaters are on round" Namjoon groaned in annoyance.

"Chill guys we'll just sit behind, it's not like we gotta do any shit" I said also annoyed cuz I hate to dance it's basically the most girliest thing ever and I hate it.

"Yeah guess we'll do that it's not like we have any choice " Yoongi said while he plopped down his seat to sleep.

God does he know anything else except sleep.

We started talking cuz the teacher was absent today.

"So namjoon tell me how's things with Seokjin going? I heard rumours about you Guys being a thing"

"Oh fuck the rumours it was just a one kiss which was basically from his side but someone saw us and spread the rumour, I admit he is hot but I'm into girls"

"Yeah dude but I thought you really liked him plus he stares at you pretty much all the time"

"Don't be stupid Tae me liking a guy...never I hate being gay, you should know this more than anyone, we fuck around with girls begging for us and I like it that way plus I'm not into lovey dovey things it makes me want to puke" Namjoon said explain his part.

"Yeah you are right we fuck and not love but I never took you for a homophobe"

I said a little hurt to know that I felt somehow different from him. But he was right we were never like this.
But why does my heart feel different now.

"I mean I don't hate them but I definitely don't like them, weren't you a homophobe too?"

Oh fuck how can I forget I used to hate gay people. I even bullied some of them.

"Yeah right" I said a little unconvincingly.

The bell rang helping to me to get away from this awkward situation.

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