mid night poetry( part 1)

my unblind sins

My Unblind Sins

In the beginning I was emotionally blind

So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind

Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes

I'm the one at fault

For all of the wrong I've done

And I can't live with what my decisions have brought

I'm my own prisoner of these memories

Unforgettable stains of my grief

I'm also the warden, and I can't leave

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Shackled by my mistakes

Wrapped in a chain of lies

I deserve the past I made

For the future won't be mine

Bound by the pain I gave

Locked in a cage of my conscience 

I'm serving my time until the end of days

For this is my own form of self-vengeance

Left on the edge of my dreams

Watching life pass me by

I must sacrifice my own greed

Because I can't make all of my wrong's right

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Though fate seems inescapable 

Those who trespass must find it bearable

Because my fear seems to be calm and settled

I don't want to watch myself waste away

But it's still a part of the price that I must pay

For I am the one who made myself turn out this way

To the end I could clearly see

That I was going to die from this destiny

Finally, all of my sins have been turned against me