I Love You My Little Bro

P' I love you💗

Kit's pov

it's first time i can talk to P'Ming like a good friend not just like neighborhood.
yeah we are live next to each other but not really close..
no ....our family actually so close in past from the photo album ,my father have keep..i saw many photo of me and P'Ming also our parents ,even before our parents have us (me and P'Ming) my father have many photo of them.
once i asked my father do we are still have family relationships with them?.
my father just said if they are good friends since they still in university,..the time has flies so fast now they busy with their own work and family so never have time to hangout together like before.

look like what i see,my father work hard for me,sometime he need go out country for few week for work..at first i feel so lonely but dad always ask my nephew to come over so i will not lonely at all.about P'Ming family ,i think they are also have a good day and happy family.her ma stay at home take good care of him ,only his father go to work.i have secretly looking at him every day.

I don't know where and when it's started,i have feeling for him,yes i do love P'Ming secretly.. I don't understand about my own feeling at first place till that day my nephew ask me to meet his boyfriend,from there i know loving someone is not because his gender or age but how we feel about that person.

Today i give P'Ming my first kiss,i don't know what P'Ming think about me,i am really scared to death but i see  he don't have any reaction with what i do..he didn't angry me or scold me never.hope he also have same feeling like me..
"Nong Kit,where is your room,i want take quick shower first".i hear P Ming asking me make me back too my real world.

"just go up stairs P, then turn right no 1 is my room".i said.

"so,can i just go take shower first?".P'Ming asking me with doubtful in his face.

"it's okay P' Ming ,just comfort your self like in your own home P".i said again.
he just give smile and going up to my room.i clean the table before go up to my room looking at P'Ming..i open the door slowly maybe P'Ming still in bathroom..

i turn on the tv and sit on my bed,when my phone rang ,there is my dad.
" hallo pa,,".

on the line
" where are you Kit?".

" i am at home pa".

" P'pick said you ask him no need to come,àre you really okay at home alone Kit?".

"i am not alone pa, don't worry na".

"so who stay with you Kit,you ask your friends come home?".

"no pa i.."..

" so,who is he/she?...are you sure you are okay son,take care na". my dad asking without any space , without hear my explain.

" there is..hemm P' Ming stay here with me pa".i said..

" what?..you means Ming our neighbors?".my dad look shocked.

"yes pa,P'Ming our neighbors".

"did his parents know he is in our home?".

"I don't know pa,but i have tell him to call his parents ".

"okay if that's all i feel relief now".

"you not mind ,i ask P'Ming stay here ?".

"it's okay Kit,i am happy to know you and Ming to be close, tomorrow i call you again pa have something do to now".

"krub pa"...i ended the phone ,and take heaveliy breath.my dad same look happy to hear it P'Ming staying here.Maybe he also want his kid can get close to each other like them too.
"Who's that Kit?". I don't notice it P'Ming already sitting next to me.

"Ah.. there's my pa P?". i said..

"Did he mind i am staying here Nong?".

"it's okay P, don't worry.my pa said he happy you staying here P".

"really?".

"hemm....".i nod my head..
he just smilling and brushing my hair with his finger..

"P,Ming are you not mad at me?"..i ask him carefully.

"Mad at you? for what Nong?".he look confused.

" that...hemmm...about ..i kiss you".
i said but i am not dare to look into his eyes.i am scared he will angry me.

"Now already late Nong let go to sleep".he said without give answer..maybe he angry me .. secretly i look at him but he just ignoring me and lying on my bed..

"Your hair still wet P,let me help you dry it na". i get up then take hair dyer and dry his hair..he just look at me confusly but he didn't complaints..

"You can't going to sleep when your hair still wet P,you will get headache". i am the one who complaints him.

"it's okay Nong ,i already used to it".he said.i try to look in to his eye .
"are you angry me P?".i put hair dryer on the table.
"ha...?"..he said confusly.i sit in front him and hold his hand..

"P'Ming will you angry me if i said ,i like you P".i say directly what inside my mind..i don't know what will he do after it but i just want he know i love him so much..i do love him from long time ago .

"Nong Kit are you just make fun of me right?"..he said with his smilling face.he think i am just kidding.i just take his hand in put in my chest.
"You think i am still play around P?,can you feel it my heart breathing so fast?".i can see in his eye he look so nervous.
he take his hand away..
"i am sorry Nong,I....".

"it's okay P,i know it's will shocked you,but i can't hold my self little longer".i said before he got misunderstad .
"Give me time Nong,,".

"Just take your time P,i will wait".i said happily ..
"Nong ,,what you like from me?".

"i like the way you are P"..

"may i ask you something Nong Kit".

"yes of course P'Ming, what's that?".

"do you have boyfriend before?"..
i just shake my head without give him answer..

"you so popular at school P'Ming,you must have many girlfriend?".i try to find more about P'Ming.....he just smilling ,i don't know what that means .
"how you know i am so popular Nong'kit?".he ask coriously.
"we are in same school P'Ming ,did you forget that". i said ready to get up from the bed.but suddenly he grabbed my wrist.
"Nong Kit,,,".

"Krub P ".he didn't answer me but he just bring me to sit in his lap,i don't know what he want but i feel so nervous.i am the one who seduces him all the time but when he come up like this why i do so nervous..
"What's up P'Ming?".i asking him again.
but still he don't give me reaction ,i look into his eye hope i can get the answer from there..his eyes really so beautiful but what i see is sadness,what actually happens to P'Ming.did he have secret in his life that i don't know.i spy him all the time how i don't know about it or ?????....many questions appears in my mind at the moment..

"can you also feel it ?"...he hugged me tights .
"ha..?".i am little surprise,i don't get it what he means "CAN YOU ALSO FEEL IT?".
"i ask you Kit,did you feel it,my heart breathing so fast too same as you".he say then looking at my face . it's feel so embarrassed.what should i do..i know my cheeks being red now..i want head my face right now,but suddenly i feel his lips already touching in mine.his tounge slipped inside my mouth. i just allow him do what he want . it's feel so good .did i just dreaming?..
i don't know how long he kissing me,till i notice it  he already lying on top me ..
"P'Ming.."..that what i can say nothing else..
"i am sorry Nong". suddenly he get up and sit in the bench..i can see his expression has changed..i follow him sit in the bench.
"it's okay P, don't say sorry".i said while holding his hand and put my head in his shoulder.he just silent but also just let me lean on his shoulder..

i wake up in the morning with P'Ming next to me,,i think i fall asleep in his shoulder last night..i am smiling like crazy looking the one i love lying next to me when i am wake up in the morning,like a dream but it's real.even P'Ming have not said directly he like me too but,i will wait...