I Love You My Little Bro

scared in my heart

Kit'pov

It's been few month  already i dating with P'Ming. We are really happy with each others but deep inside my heart i still feel so scared, i don't know what will happen in future if P'Ming found out about my family. I am really scared to lost him.

It's look like just simple matter but who know what P'Ming thinks. Every person has their own opinion in every problem.

As i know how stubborn P'Ming was, i more scared to look forward on our future. Moreover he already knowing My pa make out with someone that day.

Would he be okay with it, sometimes i think if i am not his son maybe it's wouldn't happen in my life but sometimes i also thinks i am so lucky bcoz i was his son, there he always give me whatever i want even he need to give up his own happiness.
"i am sorry pa, i haven't be a good son for you".

"what are you thinking Kit? ".

"pa, when you come back home?".

"just a while ago Kit".

"why are you sitting here alone, where's Ming?".

"I just can't sleep pa, P'Ming already sleep" .

"Something bothering you my son?" .my pa sit next to me on the bench.

"Nothing pa, maybe just thinking about my exam".

"It's okay dear don't force yourself, at least you can handle my company in future ".

"I want be a good doctor pa".i  tell him my dream in future, i want be a doctor so i can help everyone. After i hear my pa story about my mother, i already make a decision to be doctor when i grow up.

"of course dear, you can be a good doctor ".

"Did you go with uncle today? ".

"No, i was busy with my work today , that why i can't come back home for dinner, sorry na".

"It's okay pa, i am already used to it, thanks for your hard work pa, someday i will work hard for you too pa".

"good boy, i feel relief you have Ming to accompany you when i am not home".

"yes,, i can easily get close to him because he just like you pa".i said and laughing.

"Aw you really think your boyfriend just look like your pa".my pa said while brushing my hair with his finger.
Yes i admit it P'Ming just look like my pa in everything even the food he like to eat same as with my pa.

"Pa.... "

"What's up Kit? ".

"P'Ming.... ".

"Something happen with Ming?do you fight with him? ".

"hemm.. Nothing pa,, just go take your rest pa, i want stay here for a while".

"okay, if something bothering you just tell me na".

"krub pa"..

My pa walk inside the house left me alone here, i feel so empty. I look up to the sky so many stars there, that was so beautiful but i know i wouldn't catch them for real.

What should i do?i just scared facing the truth i and P'Ming may not to be longing as i wish at first place.
Even my pa will approve our relationship  at least, i will just willingly to let P'Ming go rather than to see my pa break his own happiness.

My pa already give his happiness for many times  now, what i can do just return that happiness for him.

I walk back to my room, i open the door slowly i don't want disturb P'Ming from his deep sleep, i jumped on the bed silently, i can hear P'Ming snoring. His face still look so handsome even in his sleep.
I love his charming,,

I lying next to him try to close my eyes, i feel P'Ming big arm pulled me closer  ,it feel so comfortable. I just smiling to my self .

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I am wake up without P'Ming next to me, i sit on my bed rubbing my eyes,.

"are you wake up dear? " i see P'Ming come out from bathroom.

"you wake up so early P? ".

"now already 10am Kit".

"really? ".

" go brush your teeth dear, pa already calling us for breakfast ".

"you come down first P, i come down soon"....

I come down after brush my teeth, i see P'Ming and his pa sitting on the dinning room  when my dad make breakfast for us, yeah that's my pa, he always try his best for me and uncle, he do house work even he also busy with his office work.

"morning pa,, uncle ".i am greetings them.

"morning dear".my pa and uncle said.

"aw babe you ar so means, you don't even say morning to me"Ming complaining with his sad face.

"i already said it when you wake up P".i said without looking at him. Secretly i look at his dad, i don't know how his reaction heard it the way P'Ming calling me. But he look so calm.

"Come sit here baby,".P'Ming over seat to me next to him.

"Thanks P".

"so, will you go with us today Kit? ".uncle asking.

"where  we go uncle? ".

"i and your pa will go to beach,since today we are free".

"so, you two can go uncle i want stay at home today".i said..

"aw, why we not come along with them baby, i want go to beach too".P'Ming said.

"i am not say it you can't go P' ".

"so we also go".P'Ming jump happily.

"not we,, only you okay".i said then keep eating my breakfast.

"Bright,, you see how you spoiling my tiger, how come he be little puppies only in few days"..uncle said to my pa. I just can't hold my self to laugh at him..

"aww,, that same with how you spoiling me right? ".my pa said..

"aw Kit since when he be like this? ".uncle ask me..

"i don't know uncle ".i said with my laugh..
I just remember P'Ming still here, i just look at his confused face... But i don't know what should i say to him.

"Pa since when you so close with uncle Bright? ".suddenly he opens his mouth.

"Before I have you ".uncle said

"aw i am serious pa".

"i am serious too".

" so you two know each other for long time? ".

I just listening what they talk, but i am still scared.
"i am already full, i am going up first".

I just leave them and going up to my room, i don't want hear anything that would hurt me or P'Ming.

"aw Kit, you have not finished your breakfast dear".i hear P'Ming said but i just ignoring him .....