Murphy's pov
I stood completely frozen. I felt dead and empty. Olivia was pregnant. How the hell could dat happen! I couldn't raise a child with the work we do! It's not safe! I have a hard time even lettin liv come along. I looked back At the door she went out of. She didn't just leave, she took my life with her. I know I need her, but I can't now...especially with the baby. It would be better off without me. I had to fight every urge in my body that was telling me to run after her. I shook my head and ran a hand through my hair. I slowly walked back into the kitchen to see Rocco And Connor sittin at the table drinkin. I didn't make eye contact with either as I just grabbed a beer. I popped it open when Connor asked,
"Ya alright?"
Still avoiding eye contact I just nodded. I was trying so hard to fight back the tears and the heartache that was goin on inside me. I just abandoned my other half and my unborn baby.
"We'll figure this out" I felt Connor had gotten up and placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder.
I finally made eye contact with him and hesitantly nodded. He gave me a brotherly
smile and then something in the news caught all of our attention. It was that smecker guy on the news. He was talking about the incident at the house. I started to shake and get nervous. Now Olivia is out there on her own..dammit.
"Shit." Connor sighed.
Rocco pointed to the tv,"What?What, that guy?"
"That's the guy that got us off the hook with the "Checkov" thing." I murmured still avoiding eye contact.
"And he is one smart man." Connor agreed.
"They got nothing." Rocco said sternly.
" This guy is very sharp. If he hasn't figured us out yet, he will." Connor said.
I Finally made eye contact, feeling better the topic was now off Olivia. Yet inside, it was bothering the hell out of me,
"You bet your ass he will."
"Well, I'd say that makes him a lia-fuckin-bility." Rocco said a-matter-of factly.
Connor and I looked at each other. Silently speaking to each other through our eyes. We turned back to roc,
"He isn't to be touched." Connor said
"He's a good man." I agreed.
"Ok...whatever" Rocco rolled his eyes.
He then looked around the room,"hey where's liv?"
My heart stopped and I felt ice run through my veins. I was frozen and immediately looked away from them.
"Aye where is da lass?" Connor asked.
I said nothing and heard roc say,"she's probably in her room, the fuck ya say to er murph?"
"Aye I got er! Throw er ova my shoulder if I gotta" Connor joked starting to leave the kitchen.
My breathing started to hitch. I was ashamed, I needed her. I looked at the ground and whispered,
"She's gone"
Silence filled the room as I continued looking at the ground. Connor walked towards me with a shocked expression,
"Da fuck ya mean she's gone?"
I sighed as I fought back tears and whispered,"she's gone now"
I heard Rocco sit his beer down,"you kick her out?"
I hesitated but nodded, finally looking up at the two. Rocco's face was shocked and Connors had changed from shocked to pure anger. He charged at me,
"You son of a bitch!"
I braced myself to be tackled when Rocco quickly got up and held him back. Connor fought against him,
"Let me go! I'm gonna beat yer ass!" Connor screamed.
"I did wha I had to! Ya know we can't have a kid around with wat we do!" I screamed back.
"We could've handled it! That's yer baby!" Connor yelled.
"I did it for da baby!" I screamed.
"No ya did it for yerself cause yer a damn pussy! Ya fuckin coward!" Connor screamed finally breaking the hold Rocco had on him.
He didn't charge at me though, he just glared,"what about liv too huh! Cops and sickos are everywhere murph! She can't go to no hospital for help either! She's goin into dis alone! Ya just were talkin bout fuckin marryin er last night!"
I froze. I thought I felt alone before, but now I felt completely dead. Connor was breathing heavy with Rocco glaring at me behind him. He was right and now I knew more than ever that I made the wrong decision. I needed her.
"What da fuck happened to my brother cause da man standing infront of me isn't him, hell ya not even a man!"Connor yelled.
Every word he said to me was exactly right. I took in every word as I looked up at my brother who now had tears staining his cheeks,
"Ya just as bad if not worse den dem fuckers we take off da streets." Connor glared and left the room.
There was a very awkward silence between me and Rocco. I avoided eye contact with him when I heard him say,
"You fucked up man."
I sighed and said," I know"
I stormed out of the kitchen and passed Connor in the living room. I grabbed my coat off the chair and headed for the door.
"Where da fuk ya goin?" Connor snarled.
I turned back to him,"imma find er"
He nodded and I closed the door walking outside while sliding my coat on. I stopped on the sidewalk and looked down each side of the streets. I had no idea where to start or where she would be.
A/N so I can't do two dedications on this or I so would but this chapter is dedicated to my two followers with birthdays today! Happy birthday guys!
