Dan was looking out the window, looking around the place he grew up his entire life in. So many memories Dan has to let go of.
"Daniel?" Phil says to Dan, slightly scaring him. Phil sees Dan turn around out of fright, to see a tear on Dans cheek.
"Oh my god, Dan are you okay!?" Phil Asks. "It's 4 in the morning!"
Dan tries not to break down, but as soon as he tries to speak he starts sobbing, melting down on Phil's shoulder. Phil's heart melts at the sight of Dan crying. "Look at me." Phil says, gently holding Dans face towards Phil's.
Phil's heart skips a beat seeing Dan with a beat pink face from crying. Phil's eyes water as he thinks about how sad his boyfriend is.
"Why are you crying?.." Phil softly questions.
"I-I dont know- just- memories and shit I guess- it's dumb, sorry. Just so much happening at once, hard to handle." Dan cries quietly.
"Oh my god- Daniel it is not dumb, I'm so sorry. I understand." Phil says, pulling Dan back into an embrace. "Soon we will be able to act ourselves outside, in front of people. Okay? I'll make sure you're always smiling, and
I won't let anyone hurt you. We are gonna make it together, okay, love?"
Dan nods in return, leaving tear stains on Phil's black baggy sweater. "Why are you so nice to me?.. I don't- I don't do enough for you." Dan stutters a little bit through his sentences.
Phil's heart drops to hear Dan say that. Phil feels a rush of anger climb through him. "I- N-No!!" Phil shouts, startling Dan. Phil grabs Dans shoulders and makes direct eye contact with him. "DANIEL FREAKING HOWELL. You do TOO MUCH FOR ME! You're so amazing and sweet and you care for me more then anyone in this world ever could. You're way too nice to me and I don't even deserve it, sometimes I feel like I'm the one not doing enough. Please, babe, don't doubt yourself. You're fantastic." After Phil's little speech, he feels Dans hand on his face, wiping a tear that Phil hadn't even noticed that he made through out that talk.
Dan doesn't speak, but all he can think about is how much he loves Phil Lester and how he was so lucky.
"But uhm, we should get sleep. We have a big day tomorrow." Phil says.
Dan nods and gets comfy on the bed along with Phil, then snuggles into Phil, making Phil return just as much love by petting his head until the two peacefully fall asleep.
A/N: YALL, IM- HI. LOOK IM NOT DEAD. Crazy, right? I'm so sorry about that LONG ASS BREAK SKSKSKIEWISMRJSJ- I just was struggling with a lot and got caught
up with spending time with my girlfriend I actually uninstalled Wattpad, I'm sorry if the next few chapters are rushed cause I actually wanna start a new ff about Chloe Price x Rachel Amber! But I don't trust myself to start making it before I'm done making this cause I don't wanna get too lazy to finish this. But anyway expect more chapters soon. xx🥰
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Hide away; phan
FanfictionA country where you get killed for liking the same gender. {{There are actual countries like this}} Dan Howell has lived half of his life in fear, closed in and not aloud to share his thoughts. Daniel Howell was gay. He knew he was probably the only...
