Follow Your Heart | jirose

• chapter 18 •

Jimin's Pov
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I read the same sentence on the report in front of me for about the 5th time. Angered, I toss it aside and push my hair back, groaning in annoyance.

Why can't I stop thinking about her?

She dumped me. SHE dumped me. I should be over this by now.

But why does my heart still yearn for her? I still crave her touch and attention.

And she cried. Her soft eyes eliciting those tears. She broke me. But why was she hurting so much too?

It was her choice. Why does the sight of her in pain make me feel worse than the pain of her dumping me?

I know the answer to that but surely I can't admit to it now. Not now that we're over because I shouldn't still be feeling this way.

Surely I shouldn't admit that seeing her cry hurts because I'm still so deeply in love with her.

I miss everything about her. I miss her smile, her twinkling gaze, her beautiful personality. Everything.

In my lowest moments, I turned to something I already knew. Someone I already knew and who knew me. It's so easy to fall back into old flings and turn to familiar faces when feeling like this. But I'm above all that. Well I should be.

It angered me before I realised that a breakup goes two ways. Both parties will get hurt. But it was already too late. Chae had seen me and Seulgi and the damage was done.

I never meant a single word I ushered to her in that moment. Not a single one. When she left the office I felt my world collapse.

That broken gaze, that pained face she wore, is now imprinted in my mind and I can't focus on anything besides it.

Suddenly a very pissed of Miss Manoban swings open the door and storms into my office.

"You stupid fucking bastard!" Her fury radiated off of her and slightly sent chills down my spine, "how could you be so fucking-"

"Need I remind you that I can fire you, Lisa. Don't make me call security because I'm sure you don't want Jungkook to escort you out." Having him as head of security posed as good threat and I regain composure as her expression darkens.

"Fire me then! Bring that dick in just to drag me out! I'm going to give you a damn piece of my mind and set you straight!"

"I'm-"

"No you listen here," I don't lose eye contact but press the intercom for security, "Your slut of a plaything Seulgi threatened Chae, and told her that if she didn't break up with you she'd ruin your career."

Rendered speechless, my brain tries to figure something to say. I open and close my mouth trying to form a sentence but I'm left in a state of utter disbelief

"What are you a fucking goldfish? Close your mouth, I'm not done," she snaps, " Chae loves you, so fucking much, she didn't get out of bed for days. She thinks you hate her! And when she returns your locking lips with the bitch that ruined it all!"

"For fuck sake," I utter lowly at a whisper, rubbing my forehead.

"She knows how hard you work for this damn company and didn't want that jeopardised. She did it all because she cares about you and I swear to god if Jeon Jungkook is on the other side of that office door I'm shredding both of you to bits!"

As the owner of the knocking opens to reveal himself, Lisa's glare changes from me to Jungkook.

"La-Lali?"

"Save your breathe Jungkook, I'm not done with your small friend here." Jungkook looks apologetic but sits in the nearest chair as she points him to do so.

"I'm taller than yo-"

"Oh did I say you could speak?" I don't know why but I shut my mouth instinctively as she shoots daggers at me.

"I understand that you're taking the breakup hard, but aren't you a professional? Shouldn't you handle yourself with at least some dignity?"

"I-I didn't know."

"You really think she would want to hurt you? She did it for you because she loves you. And what'd you do? Oh right, you stood here and called her a gold digger!"

I blink profusely, trying not to let any tears fall down my cheeks. Fuck, how could I have been so blind?

"She did it for me? Why didn't she tell me? I could've dealt with Seulgi!"

"Chae is a selfless human being, she thought that you'd worked too hard for your company for her to stand in your way. You of all people should know what her decision would've been."

"Wh-where is she now?" I fumble to find my keys and grab my jacket.

"I let her stay at home. And Jimin, if you don't sort out Seulgi before I get to her, don't be surprised when you get a funeral invitation." Suddenly Jungkook perks up from his previous silent state.

"Lali I-"

"I really don't want to talk to you Jungkook, what's done is done okay? I've moved on, so should you."

"I can't! I really tried to, but you're inescapable."

"I hate to intrude, but Lisa please get someone to postpone my meetings until further notice."

"Only if you take Jungkook with you on your way out." I give Jungkook a slight shrug and he slumps his way over to me, as we both leave my office.

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Walking up to her apartment building, I buzz the intercom. I'm physically shaking with nerves as I wait for her response.

"This is Chaeyoung's apartment, who's this?" She answers groggily. Fuck, I miss her.

"Chae?...I-It's Jimin. Lisa explained everything. Please, let me in." There was a brief silence before she replied.

"I-I just don't feel like I can see you right now Jimin. I'm just, I'm sorry."

"I understand baby. But just understand that I never meant a word I said and I know you have no reason to believe me right now and I said I don't do second chances, but I'll be here, every day, begging and pleading for you to spare me a chance. I love you and I'm going to sort this all out. I promise."

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A/N:
So from now on it's gonna be brand new chapters until the very end!
I'm not sure when I'll be updating again but hopefully soon enough