SAKURA TREE: NAKAMOTO YUTA

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yuta

the moon appeared, the sky was dark and was sprinkled with glowing stars. it was such a beautiful scenery, i enjoyed standing while looking up, watching the sky.

the sakura trees, you could still clearly see it was pink because it was that powerful.

i heard footsteps coming near, i looked down and saw sakura shyly walking upstairs with her head hanging down.

"sakura." i spoke, i took a step down as she stopped two staircase away from me. she looked down and didn't wanted to connect our eyes together.

"sakura, look at me." i whispered, i took one step down and waited for her to look up. but she didn't.

"sakura, please look at me." i plead, i lifted her chin and there i saw her beautiful face once again.

i never felt so happy that i started smiling so wide, that smile was filled with happiness but somehow filled with pain too.

"yudtha...." she spoke, she started having teary eyes which worried me. she without any hesitation crashed her body into mine, she wrapped her arms on my neck and hugged me desperately.

"yutha..." she cried.

i placed my palm on top of her back head, slowly and gently pushed it down my chest as i hugged her tightly back. "sakura don't cry." i mumbled.

"sakura i am truly sorry, i am sorry that my mother came up with that idea." i apologized. "and i do think it's the best to...... to not meet again sakura." i said. "i know how much your mother needs that job, and she doesn't deserve to be fired because of me."

i broke the hug and leaned down to cup her cheek, slowly and gently i pecked her forehead and wiped her fragile and cold tears with my thumb.

"i just wanted to say goodbye sakura." i said.

she nodded her head, she pulled herself away from my hands and wiped her own tears with both of her palms.

"oday... o-okay." she repeated.

"sakura, i just wanna say thank you for being a.... good friend. i really love being with you, it's like being with someone you actually wanna be with rest of your life." i said. i started to have teary eyes, and i could feel them burning, my tears so desperate to escape from my eyes but i tried holding them back.

"no.... y-udtha thandk you. thank youd for being here w-withd me when others didn't accept who i wad-was. thandk you for likind me the way i am." she chewed on her lips and tried holding those tears back.

i couldn't help but smile.

"sakura i-" i gulped and was very confused, i had two thoughts of actually confessing my feelings for her. should i, or should i not?

i really want to show that i love her, i want her to feel that someone actually loves her so much that the person wants to hug her endlessly. she needs to feel that feeling, a feeling of being adored by a boy. she needs to know that i love her so damn much. she needs to know how much i want to be with her, how much i like her, how much i wanna hug her endlessly, how much i wanna kiss her.... how much i wanna confess to her.

"sakura, goodbye." i gulped, i cupped her cheek and weakly smiled.

but i wasn't confident enough to confess.

i let out an invisible sigh and stepped from the left, i started slowly walking downstairs and wanted to turn around and confess, but i couldn't.

you could hear the crickets, the breeze and it was peaceful and amazing, but the scene that was happening between us was painful. leaving each other, it was painful.

"yudtha!" she screamed, i stopped my tracks and turned around.

she had the most painful expression her face. her eyebrows were furrowing down, eyes filled with sadness and her lips formed into a big frown.

"yudtha...." she started. "i- i lod you.." she spoke.

i furrowed my eyebrows. "huh...." i whispered to myself.

she could see i had no clue what she just said, it made her insecure and embarrassed. she let out a quick and quiet whine, she tilted her head and scratched her hair.

"i lo- i lad- i lov i lod you!" she shouted, i could see deep inside her eyes that she tried her best to speak out and pronounce it correctly.

i tilted my head. "w-what?" i stuttered, i didn't wanted to say that word, it would hurt her.

and seeing her like this, she didn't liked the fact that she tried her best to speak correctly but i just couldn't understand it. it's so painful, i don't want her to feel like that.

she burst out one tear, she inhaled deeply and exhaled.

she put up her thumb, index finger and pinkie finger, while keeping her ring finger and her middle finger down. she held the hand out, palm facing away from her and move it back and forth slightly.

and at the same time, she mouthed the words "i love you."

my heart melted, my whole body melted. i felt satisfaction inside me. when i looked at her, it was like something inside me automatically pushed me to her.

"yudtha..." she shook her head.

"yuta, i love you." she spoke.

she was surprised herself after hearing her pronunciation that her eyes widened, sparkled like beautiful glitters. i couldn't help but smile, hearing her pronounce it correctly made me smile, but seeing her be happy towards it made me happier.

i cupped her cheek. "sakura akiyama, i love you too."

"i love you so damn much you have no idea. i love you, i love every single thing about you. even if you were deaf, and you're mute sakura i still love you, the way you are. i love how your so different from other girls, it's so so rare for me. it's like i found a rare, beautiful, shiny and hiddengem."

"but you have to know that i would always remember you, even if i need to be with aika i still love and adore you. even if you're already with someone else, i will still remember and love you." i said.

i never felt so free, and relaxed because now that i confessed my feelings to the one i love, it felt so amazing. what's more amazing is, she's feeling the same way!

she nodded her head instantly after hearing my confession. "i feeld, i feel the samed- same way yuta." she spoke.

she connected our forehead into one another, i could feel her heavy breathing and could even hear her heart beating fast and loud.

i wrapped my left arm around her waist, quickly pulled it closer to me as our face were inches away from each other.

without any hesitation, i cupped her cheek with my right hand and crashed my lips into her tinted red, soft lips. i started giving them big squeezes, my lips were so desperate for her kisses but she never kissed back.

she disconnect our lips, she looked at me with most worried, red, and confused face.

i just stood, scared that she might thought i went too much, or too far.

but i didn't.

she wrapped her arms around my neck, and kissed me desperately. i kissed her back and grabbed her thighs tightly as they wrapped on my lower body. i hugged her waist and continued what i was doing.

something like this, i didn't wanted this scene to end. but it had to, now i just wanna enjoy it.

this would probably our last interaction in our whole, entire life.

and i wished we could be together, but no.

i love you sakura akiyama.