Reunited

No.12

Gon;

I felt as though I was floating on cloud nine.

Killua's skin had always been cold, he was almost like a reptile of sorts, but while holding me in his arms I felt incredibly warm.
His kiss was gentle yet yerning and it made me greedy for more. I'd never kissed someone before...was it supposed to feel this good?

When we finally released from the kiss I was breathing oddly, I wasn't exactly out of breath but I was....breathless.

His Navy eyes met mine and I immediately went into a flush.
"...Wow Gon, getting all hot and bothered by a little kiss are we?" I heard the teasing tone in his voice.

I was even more embarrassed after that, "w-well what do you expect?!" My voice cracked.

Killua let out a laugh.
"It's not funny! W-who wouldn't feel this way after finally kissing someone they've liked after years! You big dummy....." I covered my face with one hand as soon as those words left my mouth. I knew my whole face was red, my skin was overly hot.

After a painfully awkward 5 seconds of silence, Killua pulled me up and sat me in his lap facing him.
"Yeah, I'm sorry...but if it makes you feel better your my first kiss," a smirk crept on his face as he eyed me playfully.

Was it really? He felt way too experienced for that to be his first. Either way I felt a large sense of happiness.
"You're also my first too!" I hugged him tightly.

"...I'm glad you haven't changed Gon...." He hugged me back, but it felt sad. I was never good with guessing his inner emotions. I mean he was a trained assassin, it's his job to not show emotions to people. Though with me, even if it was just a little, I felt he opened up to me. And I loved that.

"Killua...?"

He hugged me tighter and continued, "when I came to see you again it had felt like forever...and after hearing about your feelings it made me feel like an idiot for not acknowledging them sooner. It hurt to think that you had to hide that from me Gon," his hand made his way up to my hair, as he started stroking me softly.

"...you were my first friend, my best friend at that, yet you still couldn't be completely honest with me...."

"Yeah, I just-- I didn't want it to ruin our friendship. I'm pretty sure you knew nothing about relationships, and we were just kids. I didn't want to push that burden on you," I pulled away and was greeted by his pained expression. Sadness and regret written as plain as day.
Cupping his face in my hands I continued, "sure I had a heavy heart carrying these feelings...what made it worse was that i thought I was just confused...you were my best friend I might have been mistaking my platonic love but over time I came to realize that wasn't it...it wasn't easy. However I always regret not telling you sooner Killua."
I rested my forehead on his our noses touching softly.

He stared, his eyes never breaking from mine.

"Why me?"

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