Where I Belong √

Chapter 47

Chapter 47

  "Stop looking at me like that"

Chole quirks her brow. "What did we do now"

"You know what I mean" I counter and she rolled her eyes.
I feel like they are keeping me in eggshell, constantly watching me, my every move. I get that they care but to be honest it was getting under my nerves.

When Alex left, I felt so void. I even texted him once which was left on read. To say I missed him was an understatement because I started getting physically sick which was not a good sign. I was so used to him around me that I couldn't stop thinking about him. I missed being in his arms. I guess I should have never got attached in the first place. I tried not to cry myself to bed with the help of proper pills and exercise but it was of only a little help. My sister started getting worried so she called Chole to haul me out of my bedroom which I felt totally unnecessary because I was fine.

I was supposed to meet them in Sydney and I broke my promise. I busied myself with tennis. I was asked to coach my juniors. Sure that duty helps me to keep my mind off but only for a certain period. After practice, my mind was back to square one. My other escape was sleep. Many times there was a sudden urge to cut myself, harm myself but I couldn't do it constantly when my best friend and sister were breathing around me.

     "Let's go to the pub. Pleaseee " Kate whines and I shake my head.

"Not in the mood"

"At least smile."

I flashed her a fake smile and she threw a cushion at me.
"Change the fucking channel"

"Nope," I said popping the P.

Currently we three are sprawled in my leaving room watch highlights of the last soccer match.
Throughout these weeks I made them watch Soccer Matches. As expected their team won. Alex's performance was praiseworthy and I felt like a proud girlfriend.

But a shitty girlfriend. My subconsciousness mocked me.

Wait? Am I even his girlfriend?

"Girls" I called out for their attention. And their head snapped at me.
"How to apologize to someone after you hurt them"

"So you had a fight with your boyfriend and that's the reason who are feeling so down?"

"That's not true" I sat up. "He just got jealous of James over silly reason."

"Who is James?"
At my sister's question, Chole's eyes lit up in excitement.

"He is our Friend and he always had hots for Becca. I wonder why they did not bang each other.-"

"I did. And I regret it. Don't remind me"

"You slut" her eyes were gleaming.
"You didn't tell me?!!"

"Things happened before you came into our life"
I internally shuddered at the memory.

"Now I'm excited" my sister piped.
"How does he look like?"

"He is quite a catch with a hot body, green eyes..."

Just like that Chole started filling her with everything she knew about us, my problem long forgotten.
I sighed knowing it was useless to ask for help.

***

"My red sizzling beauty! Here you go!" Kate gushed finishing the final touch of makeup.

I loved what I saw in the mirror.

Thanks to Chole for the fabulous gown and my sister for dolling me up. I was clad in a red satin gown with spaghetti straps with a side slit. And it had a deep neckline enunciating my chest in a good way. My hairs were down complimented by smoky eyes and minimal makeup.