Slipknot's girls

Chapter 15 - Paul Gray

My phone slowly slipped from my hand and hit the floor shattering, I fell to my knees and screamed, this isn't true, this can't be true, I held my chest as pain burst through it and screamed again, Louise ran in and wrapped her arms around me, I screamed again and tried to breathe properly but couldn't, Louise turned on the t.v to see a news report about this, I covered my ears and rocked back and forth,

I couldn't, I couldn't hear this, it wasn't true, I looked up and seen Sid on screen, I uncovered my ears to hear 'Sid Wilson a member of the band had a video taken of his reaction when he was web chat with his fans and said that he was broken and couldn't speak' the lady said, I walked to the t.v and touched the screen "you okay?" Louise asked, I didn't answer, I couldn't talk, I remembered my phone and ran over, putting it back together before turning it on and dialling a number

The phone was answered and crying was on the other line "coco?" I asked my voice strained and shaken "lilly" she cried, I burst into tears again "tell me it's not true" I cried "its true" she cried back, I quickly hung up and ran out of the apartment.

I sat in the corner of my room and wiped my tears away before my phone began to ring, I looked at it until it stopped then it rang again and again until I picked it up and answered "Lilly" it was Sid, I sniffed and made a noise to let him know I was here, "the funeral is in two days" he whispered, I bit my lip when i heard him sigh and sniff "I miss you, I need you" he said, I held the phone to my chest and fresh tears began to flow

I lifted it to my ear and sniffed "will you talk please" he asked "I miss you too sid" I whispered, he sighed and sniffed again "will you come to the funeral?" he asked "yes" "I'll pay your way over and home again" he said, I began to sob "ok" I whispered before the line went dead.

I was back on a plane again going to Paul's funeral, I looked around and put my head phones in then watched videos of the band back in their old days, I stroked the screen when Paul appeared, I missed him so much, I wiped my eyes and fixed my hair, I closed my eyes falling into a much needed sleep, when I woke we were about to land, I rubbed my eyes and stretched as we hit the ground.

I walked through the Airport and grabbed some things and paid for them before walking outside, Boh was there holding my name on a mini white board, I walked over and waved "hey Boh" I said "wow Lilly you look different" he said "I changed my hair and got it cut" I said before getting into the car "you look beautiful" he smiled, I smiled back slightly before frowning again

I closed my eyes and rubbed them, I can't believe it, I wanted to come back but not like this, we drove in silence and I even slept but soon we stopped outside a big house, "Lilly we are here" Boh said, I groaned and stretched before opening the door and grabbing my bags which Boh helped me with, I walked to the house and Boh opened the door, only to hear complete silence

We walked inside and I looked around, Boh walked ahead of me leading the way, he stopped at a door and put his hand on my shoulder before walking away without a word, I opened the door to see all the guys and girls sitting down in silence, they all slowly looked up, red eyed and sniffing, including Sid, I stood in place before seeing Paul's jumpsuit and mask, I slowly walked over dropping my bags and grabbed his jumpsuit before I broke down again "Paul" I cried

Someone grabbed my shoulders, I looked up to see Sid, I quickly stood up and hugged him, he wrapped his arms around me as I cried.

I walked with Shannon and coco down the graveyard towards the group of people, I clutched the rose in my hands not caring about the thorns stabbing into my hands, we all hugged each other before standing in the crowd, The boys where all crying and the atmosphere was suffocating, I stood beside Sid and his hand slowly slid into mine, I threw the rose onto his coffin and hugged Sid in need of comfort, his sobs where louder now as his head rested on my head, he kissed my cheek and hugged me more

"See you up there brother" Corey sobbed as Shawn had his arm wrapped around his shoulder, I looked down at the coffin then back at Sid, he looked down at me and slowly leaned down and kissed my lips softly, before looking at me again

I stroked his face then hugged him again.

Sid and I went to his place and lay beside each other, in silence, I rolled to my side and looked at him "what's going to happen now?" I whispered "i don't know" he whispered looking at the ceiling, I frowned and lay back down on my back

"We where planning on coming over to see you" he whispered "isn't that sad" he added, I traced circles on my stomach and frowned "we were going to see you but you come to see us" he said, I didn't want to speak, I knew if I did I would say something that will upset us both

Slowly his hand slid down and grabbed mine, stopping me from drawing circles on my stomach "lilly" he whispered, I slowly looked up at him and he suddenly spun around so he was leaning over me, I looked at him as he slowly kissed me, I pulled his jacket off and he lifted me so I was straddling him, he kissed me softly and lightly bit down on my bottom lip

I stroked his cheek and sighed, I've missed this, I missed him, I kissed again and moaned when he grabbed my butt and squeezed it, I unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off, he grabbed my dress and pulled it over my head before kissing my collarbone and my chest,

He grabbed my tights and pulled them tearing them, he play me down on the bed and began kissing me, I unclipped my bra and pulled it off throwing it across the room, I pulled off my underwear and he pulled of his trousers and boxers then he entered me, I moaned as he moaned and began moving slowly

I held his arms and kissed him as he moved "oh god" I moaned as he started moving faster, I stuck my finger nails into his arms as he began sucking and licking my nipple, then he grabbed my hair and tugged it, I moaned again and he pulled me up to straddle him again, i pulled him against my body by wrapping my arms around him, helping me move faster

He lifted his head to kiss me and I kissed him passionately while moaning, our tongues massaged together, this is what I've been missing, our moaning got louder and we moved faster, "oh Sid" I moaned biting his shoulder, he lay me down again and began thrusting harder than he's ever done with me, I gasped and climaxed but he kept going making me start up again, I gasped and grabbed the skin on his back making sure to stick my nails in

He groaned loudly and we both climaxed together, I moved my hips slightly and Sid flopped down on top of me, our breathing hard and fast, oh my god !, I stroked his back and he lifted his head before kissing me, he pulled out and continued kissing me

He lifted me into his arms and kissed my neck and shoulder "I've missed you" he whispered "I've miss you too" I said breathlessly "lilly?" he said looking at me "I think I ... I love you" he whispered, my eyes widened as we sat in silence wrapped in each other's arms "what?" I whispered, unable to register what he just said "you love me?" I asked, he slowly nodded..... shit shit shit shit! say something Lilly, say Something! anything!