A Complicated Completion

t w e n t y t w o- i cant deal with this

T O M M E N

"She's back -K"

The bell rang for lunch, but that text rang fear into my heart.

I sat down at our table, the earliest as per usual. The wait for it to fill up was excruciating. Eliza sat next to me as she had done for what seemed like so long, Athena by her side, Vin and Karim opposite.

I put my hand on Eliza's thigh, to partially make her fell more comfortable but the other part was to possibly warn off Con from trying anything.

Everyone's here, and she's not. I'm fine.

Spoke too soon then Tom, well in.

"You're in my seat," that once angelic voice sneered, now it just sounded like a hum of fake tales.

"It's her seat now, Constance," Karim said boldly, his distaste for her and her actions obvious in his voice.

Normally I love lunch, but the table was so awkward today.

I was waiting- hoping for it to dissolve into normal conversation as it normally does, but something wasn't letting it. The tension hadn't been addressed ergo it wasn't going away.

Half way into wading through the viscous conversations, where the wrong thing said may have lead to a tidal wade that would drown us Vin stood up, his red hair messed up because his prior stress pulling to it.

Grabbing the lighter out of his pocket and murmuring a "I can't deal with this," he was on his merry way as a biff hung out of his mouth. I watched as what felt like everyones eyes followed him out side it, probably looking at our table waiting for the drama that they get their highs off. Our spectators were so quiet I could almost hear the clicking of Vins lighter when he left the building.

Reassuringly squeezing Eliza thigh, I got up. I think everyone thought I was going after Vin, and the gossip whores leaned in incase of an impending arguement behind the bike shed where Vin freely smoked.

"I'm going to get a drink," as I stepped away that feeling of awkwardness never left.

"Tommen?" A familar voice said from behind me as I bought a bottle of water.

I turned and looked at her in the eye something I'd been so scared to do the minute I found out that she was back.

"Why did you stop calling?"

If I hadn't been smart you'd think I heard sorrow in her voice, but knowing that it was from the master manipulator I didn't chance it.

My face heated as I realised she must have listened to all my voicemails, as a babbled on about how we were true love and if just if she came back we could grow old together.

"You never answered anyway."

I put my head back on the wall of the dinner hall, our table just in sight but the end of this conversation wasn't.

"You don't love me anymore?"

"Did you ever fvcking love me Con?"

"She's made you think that!"

Her aversion to the thought of Eliza and I clear in her wording. I think this is the first and only time I've seen Constance not fully incharge with her emotions as her voice was oozing green jealousy as well as obvious hate.

"I'm a big boy I can make my own mind up."

"You could never do that Tom."

She scanned my face looking deep into my eyes for some kind of sign or weakness, a prompt telling her what cards to play to counteract my move but she couldn't do that because even I didn't know my moves.

Eliza was the first thing that was right in my life for a seemingly long time. Her laugh glazed over all my problems with Constance, and made me realise I'm not broken, or stuck to an endless string of one-nightners. She was the sensible choice, someone who would stay by me and make things better.

But Constance was Constance. My Constance. The girl that showed me so much of a world, that made me feel all those things for the first time as my heart hoped they would be the only times. She told me that she loved me, she made everything seem fine when she was playing behind my back.

Eliza's the right choice but what if constance is my choice. What if she is sorry and did love me?

"It can go back to the way it was before, no Vin either." She said, her hand pushing my hair out of my eyes.

"We can go back to us," she inched closer to me, "but you have to agree."

I leaned forward and kissed her.

Internally I was expecting some hollywood extravaganza. But I just felt her warm lips on mine, no fireworks or the classic wattpad 'tingles'. It wasn't right, but she was all I ever wanted for a year. All my body ever craved and now it felt like it was rejecting her.

I deepened the kiss intentionally to try and see if this was just my brain melting, my head screaming that ive got what I've wanted.

Breaking the uncanny kiss was Eliza.

"Fvck you!" Eliza shouted as Karim and Athena followed her outside, she held her head up but the water pooling around her waterline was obvious and my heart broke for her. I'd just done to her what Con was doing to me, and I didn't think twice.

I looked down at con who was staring at me in admiration, "What have you done now Con?"

"No Tom, this is all on you. She won't want  you back so just stay, stay with me." Her hand was ready for the taking but I just pushed past it as I tried to find Eliza.

Constance was the nail in my coffin, maybe she wasnt made to love me and instead sent to destroy me and she was hellbent on doing it, and I'm stupid enough to just fall back into her icy grip all the time

I could never say no to Con, not until it's far to late.

"Con, you're not what I want anymore."

Her face fell. I think this is the first time I'd told her no, without joking or grovelling for forgiveness.

"I'm all you've ever wanted."

"Bye, Constance."