Poetry And Other Things

Overwhelming Dopamine

I felt happy when you were around;

We did so many crazy things

Explored places that were unknown to us

Had heated make out sessions in the archives of the library

Vandalized and tagged things

We were some rowdy teens

I wish you'd stay;

My lowest was when we'd split ways

I'd go home and think of you in the dark of my bedroom

Psych myself up to text you

Only to get no response

You could've told me;

I saw you kissing that football player outside of the gym

The way you wrapped your arms around him

And how you smiled at him when you pulled away

Why could you look at me that way?

Yet you just ran away;

I confronted you but you only spat out lies

My heart was broken but I didn't let you see me cry

I wanted answers from you but I never got them

You wanted to be friends but I wanted more than that

Did we mean nothing to you;

For weeks I just stayed home

Didn't want to go to school because you'd be there

All those voicemails and texts from you, saying that you were sorry

I wanted you to feel the pain that I was feeling

I don't want to love you anymore;

I went on a few dates here and there but no one caught my eye

After failing so many time I gave up

My heart still urns for you from time to time

But I'm doing well with repairing it as time goes on