Loving You From a Distance | Asher Angel

Six: Confused Pt. 1

After sitting with Asher for awhile the pizza came and you all ate together in the kitchen. Then both Avi and London got tired and ended up going to sleep early. You and Asher decided to sit in his room and look at old pictures.

"Remember that? I actually remember that whole day like it was yesterday." Asher chuckles and points at the picture. It was a picture of you both around 8 years old. When you first became friends. You were playing dress up for some reason. You had some old costumes and you let him use whatever your cousins left for you to keep at the time. You dressed up as a princess and he was a pirate.

"I remember. You wouldn't listen to me when I wanted to play princesses either." You smile. "You would've been a cute one." Then you laugh and rest your head on his shoulder.

"Well, you're still a cute princess. My cute princess." He smiles and grabs more pictures.

"I know I'm a cute princess. But I'm not sure about being, your, cute princess specifically." You laugh again.

"You're right. You're too perfect for me anyways." He chuckles and puts his arm around you.

"No one's perfect." You shrug.

"Well I see past all your flaws, you're perfect to me." He smiles and puts his other arm around you, resting his head on top of yours. "No one could ever compare to you."

"Asher? Why do you treat me the way you do?"

"Because I love you."

"But I love you so much more."

"Impossible." Asher lets out a small sigh.

"Uggghhhh you guys just DATE ALREADY I CAN HEAR YOU FROM MY ROOM ACTUALLY ONLY DATE IF IT KEEPS YOU GUYS QUIET! I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!!!" Avi yells tiredly and laughs. You laugh and Asher sighs again.

"Why can't we?" Asher lets go and looks you in the eyes.

"Why can't we what?" You didn't want to talk about this at the moment. I mean, you made it obvious you like each other. But what happened if another girl or guy got in between the two of you? Or he left you? Or you left him? Where will all those years of friendship go when you both decide it's best to not talk anymore?

He gives you a look, saying you should already know what he means. "Why can't you be mine? Forever?" He says as he grabs your hand.

You look down. "Aren't I already?" You sigh and try letting go. He doesn't let you.

"You know I can't promise you forever if you won't let me." Asher says letting go of your hand. He looks away with his arms crossed.

He was confusing. "Then why would you promise it in the first place?" You only spoke what was going on in your head, if he couldn't, then why would he? It wasn't like you ever forced him to or anything. But you didn't know what to think.

"Because I thought I could call you mine by now." Asher starts to tear up a little.

You close your eyes and try to explain. "Asher I can't." Seeing him cry hurt you. Your eyes also start to water.

"Why not? Why does this have to be hard? I just want you. You know this. I want to be able to keep my forever promise to be with you. But I can't if we can't even be together." Asher lets go of your hand and wipes his eyes.

"Asher. I just don't think we should. W-we just can't." You sniffle and look down.

You look at him and see in his face. He showed sadness and a little bit of anger. "Why not?" He looks you in the eyes.

You sigh. "Because I don't want to lose you." You try to grab his hand again. He just moves his hand and shakes his head.

"Who said we were gonna lose each other?" Tears fall down his cheeks, he closes his eyes and mumbles something you couldn't understand.