[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 1: Part 1

Tul leaned over and whispered in my ear from behind me.

"If you ever tell anyone, I'll make you like those Thai Program kids. Poor, unwanted, and unloved. Hell, minus the poor part, aren't you that now?"

I stayed silent despite the pain he was inflicting. Tears threatened to spill out of my eyes and onto the pillow I was face down in but I held them fast. That's what he wanted, to make me cry. I began to pass out and let the darkness take me away.

"Ahh!" I nearly yelled, gasping for breath. Another bad dream. After getting up for a glass of water, I sat on the side of the bed running a hand through my hair. When will these stop? It had been many years since I saw my brother Tul, and many years since he did...that. Regardless, it taught me a valuable lesson. I'll never let someone close enough to hurt me again.

I turned and looked at the clock. 5:20 AM. My flight back home was in 4 hours. Home...That's when the true nightmares will begin again. I wasn't that happy to go back after the party scandal. I still don't understand how I got in so much hot water and I had no drugs on my person or in my system. Hell, I didn't even drink that night. I have to start a drug program the moment I get back home. No one cared to believe if I was innocent or not. I, Tin, in everyone's eyes could never be that.

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I took a deep breath as the butler opened the door for me. I sighed in exasperation but I immediately steeled my face to hide my emotions. I walked towards my room before I was stopped by my dad. I rolled my eyes and turned around at the sound of my name.

I wai'd to him and he nodded to me.

"I hope you understand how many problems you have brought to this family, Tin. How could you be so careless? Even in a different country, the stress was felt here." I stared down at the ground. "Are you happy to almost destroy us?" My eyes snapped up then, filled with almost every emotion.

"I didn't do anything wrong." I watched my dad shake his head.

"I wish you would grow up a little and be more like Tul." As soon as my dad mentioned that asshole I became rigid. "Ah, I see that you two still haven't made up. Fine...as you were." I listened to his footsteps fade into the distance before I turned towards my room.

"I will never be like him!" I growled.

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"Ahh!!!" I practically jumped from the bed. I blinked a few times in the night, trying to focus as I took in air into my suffering lungs. My heart about jumped out of my chest and I began to shake. I was not weak, I told myself. I can get over this.

I turned and looked at the clock. 5:20 AM. Damn it. No matter what country, it was still the same time. The time when... I shook my head and stood up. I didn't have time for this. It was my first day of school. I needed to get everything ready. Everything had to be perfect.

A lot of people didn't know that I was such a neat freak. Well, besides my friend Pete. My only friend actually. He was the first person I could trust, and I couldn't even fully trust him. Trusting people always get you hurt, but I could say I believed in him at least 75%. He was too nice of a guy to not believe in. He had always been there for me whether he knew he had been or not.

After my shower, I picked out my outfit for the day. It was my typical, dress shirt and slacks with a tie and belt. I preferred to be structured and wear the same style of clothing no matter what the weather called for. My doctor said I had OCD or whatever you call it. Pete was pretty much the same way. I hated being sweaty, dirty, and unkept.

Running down the stairs, I accidentally collided with a person and dropped my bag upon impact. I looked up and realized that it was my brother. My face became stone as I picked up my item. That bastard just stood there smiling watching me and that started to anger me more than I thought it would. I brushed past him roughly.

Tul's hand snaked out and he pulled me back with strength, grabbing my neck with his hand. I glared my hatred with my eyes but in a way I found fear creeping into them against my will. I tried to pry his hand off of me but he was stronger than I last remembered. By him doing what he did those many years ago and I couldn't fight, I had just assumed that it was because I was a kid. Apparently, I was mistaken.

Leaning close to me with a sneer he whispered in my ear, "I missed you, little brother." I could hear him sniff me. What the... is that... He was rubbing his...his...against my cock. I shrank back against the wall.

"Get the hell off me!" I choked out, twisting out of his grip and pushing him into the banister. "Don't you ever touch me. You're disgusting!" I was almost to the front door when he called after me.

"I'm disgusting?" Tul laughed. "When you pretended to pass out, you had many orgasms because of me. You liked it, all of it." My hand trembled on the doorknob before I opened it and then slammed it behind me.

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I had only 15 minutes to get to class and I still didn't know where the heck I was going. I sighed loudly as I sped along the street. I tried to shake off what Tul said. It couldn't be true, could it? There's no way that I liked what he did to me. There's no way.

Maybe I was too much of a coward to admit the truth but right now I just wanted to enjoy my day of school. At school, I can pretend that I have it all together. I would play rich, handsome, a lady's man, and mysterious with the world at my feet. I was most of these things anyway. I just wish I could be them all the time without going home.

Everything was always good at school. No one would dare cross me. I was tough but popular. Every woman wanted me and every guy wished he could be like me. No matter what school I transferred to it would always play out the same. Actually, I liked having this image. That means I didn't really have many friends and I could be by myself.

I brought myself out of my heavy thoughts just in time to slam on my breaks. What the hell was this stupid fool doing in the middle of the road? He wasn't even paying attention. I laughed as I sped by and he fell off his bike into someone. That's what he gets for being in the way.

He probably was a Thai Program kid, ha, riding a bike. I chuckled more as I found a parking spot. I looked back to make sure I hadn't murdered that short guy and I saw him talking to Pete. What the hell? Did Pete know that kid? I shook my head as I walked into the building. I'd have to talk to him about his friend choices later.

Thank you for reading...way more to come!